tomorrow night is likely the night.

[gizzreid]

my SN arrives tomorrow. i do work from 4-10:30 (pm) and i considered doing it after i got off so i can say goodbye (without actually saying it, yk?) to my favorite coworkers, but i decided that i'm gonna call out early in the morning (gonna do it so early i am drowsy and i sound sick lol) and before i take the SN i'm gonna text him, the partner who ghosted me. i'm gonna CTB either way but i figure if he wants to talk to me i'll hold off until i can't do it anymore even with him as my partner, that was originally the plan before he ghosted me. but if he says no, or just ignores me, i'll send me into an episode and i find my SI goes away during episodes and it'll be even easier for me and more peaceful to feel all that pain wash away as i drift into sleep. i hope that makes sense. i am still preparing some notes but i have lots of time today.

 

[storeboughtisfine]

Please be safe, either way.

 

[starlover]

I didn't get to know you, but I pray for your happiness whatever your decision.

 

[dimstar]

I'm sorry your past your limits here, I do get what your saying about your ex. I'm glad your not relying on a response to make up your mind tho, its alot easier to live for others but ultimately we can only trust ourselves or were going to be let down. I hope your feeling okay today and things go smoothly for you. Were here whatever you decide, you dont have to do anything but only you know your suffering. Will be thinking about you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans, I think that those with the option of SN certainly are very fortunate, to me there is nothing more ideal than peacefully passing away into an eternal sleep.

 

[Letgo]

May you find peace and rest. You are being thought of.

 

[nosoul]

I may be joining you, I haven't decided, but will have my kit. Some days I just can't take it, sometimes I think to hang on but my body is broken, my brain is malfunctioning. I always wanted a big family and money and I had that opportunity but blew it sadly with drugs I think.