today, instagram showed me a bunch of videos of gang members getting shot, and i got jealous

[xXSufferingXx]

instagram recommended a lot of videos today, of gang members getting shot.
like, one gang member was in his car, doing a live stream,
singing along to a song on the radio, and then you hear gunshots, and he's just dead instantly.

a piece of shit probably (if he's a gang member), yet he goes out peacefully.
another gang pulled up on him.
started firing before he could even understand what was going on.

he didn't even have time to say like "oh shit!!!" or something

yet here we are, the ones suffering... and we just hope someone would do that to us.
at least i hope someone would kill me like that.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

similar for me. when i see videos of people getting shot sometimes shooting themselves in the head . they're usually out unconscious instantly . i feel envy. but the people commenting are saying how sad it is . i felt like posting : i wish i could switch places with the person being shot. but i guess they think it's better for me to be "dying" for 30 years in a nursing home in pain than to shoot myself and i'm dead instantly.

we all will die no matter what happens. it's not if you die but how much you minimize suffering before you die anyway.

i 've seen many especially the shooting suicide videos on the watch people die website. to me instantly going unconscious and then dying from a gun shot to the head is the best way to die because it's like pressing the button many of us say we had. don't know why (sarcasm) but dying instantly painlessly seems better than suffering for years with cancer in a nursing home .

i watch these videos to help defeat my si , to get motivation to kill myself , monkey see monkey do, to get desentized to shooting myself or to of killing myself.

i don't remember even one video of someone shooting themselves in the head and not going unconscious instantly. so to me that is the best way to die instantly .

 

[KillingPain267]

instagram recommended a lot of videos today, of gang members getting shot.
like, one gang member was in his car, doing a live stream,
singing along to a song on the radio, and then you hear gunshots, and he's just dead instantly.

a piece of shit probably (if he's a gang member), yet he goes out peacefully.
another gang pulled up on him.
started firing before he could even understand what was going on.

he didn't even have time to say like "oh shit!!!" or something

yet here we are, the ones suffering... and we just hope someone would do that to us.
at least i hope someone would kill me like that.

Same! I thought I was just alone. I've been watching a lot of gore videos like that, and even those getting beheaded I get jealous of. Because even though they suffer first it doesn't take more than a few minutes and you can see on their eyes that they simply disappear from consciousness quite fast when the blood stops going to the brain. I watch it to fantasize about dying. That's all I daydream about now. Not that I meet someone to love, not that I get a good career, not even about winning the lotto, no, just scenarios of where I fade away.

 

[divinemistress87]

So jealous