To postpone or not ?

[IWIKAW]

Hi guys

So i started my 48 regime for SN and i'm having doubts. Since the holidays are near, i'm thinking of spending some time with family and hopefully not ruining their Christmas.

I have a niece i love and the time i spend with her is the only time i feel good and forget about all this shit going on in my life. I really want to give her the best winter break i can with my budget and take her where ever she wants.

But the issue is i'm suppose to get the all clear (from my family doctor) to return to work after the holidays as i am on a medical leave right now and that is due this week. I'm not sure i could fake it to my doctor and lie to my boss about being better. I just don't want coworkers expecting i'm all better and start contacting me.

A part of me of is thinking why not just get it over with? and the other half is longing to spend time with my few loved ones (sister is the only relative).
I feel the more i postpone , the more it'll be easier to do it the next time. I really want to go but don't want to inconvenience anyone or ruin the holidays.

 

[Ark]

If you have any doubts then postpone. That is my honest opinion. You can always CTB later. You can't do anything after.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Please don't ctb if you are not sure, ctb is permanent and there will be no way back once you succeed.
I'd advise you to postpone, you're clearly in doubt: your thoughts are 50/50

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

These are good reasons to stay

 

[Flightlinek]

I fully agree... if you have any doubts at all, it's better to put it off. Especially at this time of year, when you don't want to spoil the holidays for the rest of your family. January is a bleak time of year anyway.

As for your coworkers, I wouldn't worry about them too much. I've found that coworkers tend to miss you, but employers just consider us resources that can be used, replaced or dismissed to fit their profit goals. Don't feel bad about skipping out on them after returning to work.

 

[IWIKAW]

thanks for the replies guys.

I've decided to stop the regime and save the meto at least. I'll post my experience if i decide to restart my trip