Venting To hate yourself...

[dospi1]

All i can ever see in myself is all so bad , so patthetic, so awful, today i spend hours pondering about myself, i promised myself that if i found one thing i like , i would give another shot at therapy; but i couldnt find anything, not one thing, a spoiled arrogand bastard, good for nothing a useless parasite whit not more worth than a tick, disgusting to such a deep core that i can hardly cope whit me waking up every day. why cant someone like me just die? i would gladly give my heart and organs to anyone, why i must remain here, why every time i come close to dying i get saved? while people worth so much more than me, whit so much life inside them, die. i dont get it how i got so wrong i just wanted to help people i really ment to, but here i am a pathetic, useless piece of shit not even capable of killing himself, im so sorry, i really am.

 

[CentreMid]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way and that you're suffering like this. If it's any consolation, you're not alone in your thinking. Also, sometimes therapy does more harm than good. I know it's easier said than done, but try not to beat yourself up for "failing therapy". You didn't fail, the world failed you. It failed all of us. Anywho, I hope you find peace in whatever you choose to do.

 

[fleischmaschina]

Exactly how I feel pretty much every second Im awake. So useless I cant even get to hang myself.