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babydeer
Member
- Sep 28, 2019
- 27
I'm planning to ctb today. Been planning for a while but kept postponing thinking, I can turn my life around just a little bit at least, right? And then I'm so relieved to still be alive I do nothing and nothing changes. I'm pissed off at the way that my reasons to ctb suddenly aren't that bad when I'm facing the end, yet most days the only joy I have is the fact that life WILL end at some point and I'll finally be at peace. Ugh.