Venting Tired of trying

[Cynacs]

I'm just tired. I feel depressed everyday and for my entire life. I can't remember the last time I was happy. I know that everyday is just tiring for me and I just want to be done. Yesterday, I went to the top of a 10 story building but couldn't overcome SI. I also debated order SN but it takes 30 days from DMC, or stabbing myself but I know the success rate is so small.

Not only this, but I feel like I lost the girl of my dreams a year ago. I feel like I have no one. I have so called "friends", but mainly just people at my university in my classes and no one close.

I feel like I'm a burden on everyone. I have horrible depression, and I keep trying to reach out to resources which just leads to police getting involved and causing headaches for everyone.

I want to end my life, but don't know why I can't. At the same time... I know I could stay here and try to fix things... but I just don't want to and lost all hope. I can't bring myself to do my school work either because I just want to end my life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of it all, I've always felt so tired of suffering but anyway I wish you the best, I'm sorry you have to suffer.

 

[Cynacs]

I understand feeling so tired of it all, I've always felt so tired of suffering but anyway I wish you the best, I'm sorry you have to suffer.

I'm glad someone else know the feeling. Especially when it become hopeless

 

[Warriorsfan]

I know how that feels also.
I don't know how to overcome si.
I'm scared of almost all methods.