Discussion Tired of life

[Pichardinho]

I read this forum for a long time before registering; I think it's probably the only place where I can talk freely about this subject.

I'll try to be concise:

- I'm 36 years old, and I've always found little joy in life.

- I've had a lot of difficulty with my studies since I was a child. Work bothers me, socializing bothers me enormously, I'm good at nothing.

- I have a young child, and I thought it would help me bounce back, but now I think I could just leave him some money, and his mother and my family will help him grow up.

- I've spoken to psychologists about my suicidal thoughts, and they recommended medications that I don't want to take.


I've often thought about a painless way to end all this, but aside from a gun, I don't see any other option, and it's very difficult to get one where I live. I'm tired, exhausted, and hopeless.

Perhaps I should travel to a country where guns are legal to do what I want?

 

[itsgone2]

I relate to a lot here. Life has never seemed fun to me. Just something you're forced to do. Work bothers me too. I screwed up. I have an office job and rat race jobs have always seemed meaningless to me. Where would the joy be? It all seems point and I wish we all could just disappear.

 

[jbleakness]

I hate how much we have to be a slave to the grind.

Most people accept it or aren't even aware of the shit conditions we are forced into. Ignorance is truly bliss in these circumstances.

Time is the fire in which we burn and it never ends.

 

[SufferingDev]

Its always hard for me to think what would I do if my parent died - nowdays I wouldn't really care but question is how young is your child

 

[Pichardinho]

Its always hard for me to think what would I do if my parent died - nowdays I wouldn't really care but question is how young is your child

1 month

 

[SufferingDev]

1 month

Oh. Well - its hard to tell - at one point he/she will not remember - but will your wife be able to raise them on her own?