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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
I'm tired of getting attached to anyone in 3 seconds. I met pro-lifers who didn't convince me at all with their arguments but I was so emotionally deprived that I clung to them. I called them back afterwards to see if we could keep in touch and they didn't. were not too excited...while I was nice I offered them drinks in a cafe...I called back to thank them and say that I was going to postpone the ctb... Why do I get attached to just anyone... Does this come from borderline disorder?

and what's more, I get attached to people who don't care about me...

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pleroman

pleroman

Arcanist
Feb 22, 2024
458
Same, but out of desperation going on several years with no friends or daily connections. Brain just jello. They all hate me quite quickly tho and can no longer relate to anyone on any topic so it's not really feasible to recover. They also always refuse to give any feedback on why I am so shit.

Wish you the best. I think genuine loneliness or lack of connection is sufficient without borderline, but it kinda resembles the 'favorite person' notion.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
It's horrible to feel this way I feel abandoned I want to scream and roll on the ground😭😭😭😭😭😭
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,608
"The lonely one offers his hand too quickly to whomever he encounters." - Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spake Zarathustra
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Illuminati
Sep 9, 2018
3,168
I would say try to be more self-reliant if possible. You don't necessarily need anyone, it just feels that way. And of course we should all try to have some meaningful connections but it's important you are careful and act from a position of strength when it comes to setting standards for who you're hanging out with. The reality is most people will be flaky or ghost, and that's just the way things are. So I would also hold back unnecessary interactions and not put yourself out there too often (save for exceptional conditions where you really feel there's potential). Because I tend to think if you know you're going to lose, it's best not to play.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
« Le solitaire tend trop vite la main à celui qu'il rencontre. » - Friedrich Nietzsche, Ainsi parlait Zarathoustra
Exactly
I am in social isolation (social phobia). I act like elderly people who are attached to the postman or the neighbor on the corner
It's crazy when I feel bad it's really unbearable I'll pull out all my hair...no control over my emotions. here it's a little bit better but 🥶🥶.
 
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