Timing and the Holidays

[ladolcemorte]

Anyone else just forcing themselves to get through the holidays for the sake of family/friends?

I was planning to go at the end of November but my mother begged me to come home for Christmas and I relented. She loves Christmas so much and just wants the family to be together. After everything she has done for me, I figured I could at least give her one last Christmas/New Years.

But every day is just filled with anguish and I can barely hang on. I just want out and I don't know that I can make it to Christmas, especially with all the pressure that comes with it.

 

[ThingWithFeathers]

Holiday season does compel few people to postpone their suicide attempt.

But some, who miss their long gone family/friends, become even more suicidal around this time of the year.

 

[Mariomcfly]

I feel the same way sadly I won't be sticking around. I just hope they can enjoy the all holidays to come.

 

[Jean4]

Honestly, in my opinion, if it your time it is your time. It is going to hurt as much if you do it holiday time or in April. I had someone CTB 3 days ago. It was his time. It would hurt the same no matter when it happened.

I get the whole not ruining holidays. My opinion is if a person is in so much pain that nothing else matters and I love the person, their feelings are more important than mine and any holidays.

 

[Mariomcfly]

Honestly, in my opinion, if it your time it is your time. It is going to hurt as much if you do it holiday time or in April. I had someone CTB 3 days ago. It was his time. It would hurt the same no matter when it happened.

I get the whole not ruining holidays. My opinion is if a person is in so much pain that nothing else matters and I love the person, their feelings are more important than mine and any holidays.

Great way to look at it I get the it hurts the same. I just hate the holiday to be that reminder of the day I decided to ctb. Some random day in a random month is easier to forget. I hope my family is able to forget and move on quick.

 

[Jean4]

Great way to look at it I get the it hurts the same. I just hate the holiday to be that reminder of the day I decided to ctb. Some random day in a random month is easier to forget. I hope my family is able to forget and move on quick.

I can say when my grandma was dying we were begging for her to die to be out of pain. She died on my mother's birthday. It didn't matter. All these years later, it makes it easier for me to remember.

 

[Time]

Anyone else just forcing themselves to get through the holidays for the sake of family/friends?

Yup. Hopefully I can hang on that long.

I was planning to go at the end of

Same here.

I will say that it hasn't been as bad since I've quit my job & basically sequestered myself from the rest of the world. But my ctb is still set for early January.

 

[Mariomcfly]

I can say when my grandma was dying we were begging for her to die to be out of pain. She died on my mother's birthday. It didn't matter. All these years later, it makes it easier for me to remember.

Yeah a lot of people don't get some is are pain even if we're physically ok. I do feel bad a lot of people that have the will and desire to live and have a medical condition that will kill them. I would happily trade my life for there's but it doesn't work that way sadly. I'm glad your able to apply a positive not to your grandmas anniversary.

Yup. Hopefully I can hang on that long.

Same here.

I will say that it hasn't been as bad since I've quit my job & basically sequestered myself from the rest of the world. But my ctb is still set for early January.

Take it easy don't rush anything take your time to make the right choices for you.

 

[Jean4]

Yeah a lot of people don't get some is are pain even if we're physically ok. I do feel bad a lot of people that have the will and desire to live and have a medical condition that will kill them. I would happily trade my life for there's but it doesn't work that way sadly. I'm glad your able to apply a positive not to your grandmas anniversary.

We are all going to die. Pain is a good thing. It means the person mattered.

 

[ZemTee]

if it your time it is your time.

This.

Suicides do tend to increase during the holidays due to people who have no friends or family being reminded of that fact, however. Call me a Misanthrope, but at this point I doubt I'd mind having no friends or family. I would't mind having more time without human contact.

 

[Malletboy]

I wanted to go the minute I found this place and realized I could have a peaceful death. Now I'm waiting for my materials to arrive and have to make sure I plan post-holiday season. I'd hate for my family to be reminded of my death every time Christmas comes around.

I think for some of us who aren't prepared to die this is also a good reason to hold on longer. It's an excuse to keep moving forward- push past the pain in an effort that is seemingly selfless.

 

[Time]

Take it easy don't rush anything take your time to make the right choices for you.

I am.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

In all honesty every timing will be shit, nothing will be able to avoid that your loved ones will grief about you.
I don't want to keep myself suffering and live for the sake of other people, there's nothing in my life I purely enjoy anymore.
It will need to be close to someone's birthday or close to the holidays.
Your loved ones will always be reminded of you not being there during Christmas anymore, their and your birthday etc.. it doesn't make sense to me anymore

 

[Mizzmini45]

Anyone else just forcing themselves to get through the holidays for the sake of family/friends?

I was planning to go at the end of November but my mother begged me to come home for Christmas and I relented. She loves Christmas so much and just wants the family to be together. After everything she has done for me, I figured I could at least give her one last Christmas/New Years.

But every day is just filled with anguish and I can barely hang on. I just want out and I don't know that I can make it to Christmas, especially with all the pressure that comes with it.

but eventually another holiday will roll around regardless. Its gonna hurt her either way whether its this holiday or next. I say do it when you have the courage and its just your time. That's my opinion