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akwa

Member
Apr 20, 2024
38
My chronic illness that was previously well controlled came back with a vengeance. I've picked a date.

If anyone can send SN, I would greatly appreciate it. Otherwise, I have no choice but to eat a bullet. I will be decently medicated beforehand, but I'm terrified. It's going to be loud. It's going to hurt. But only for a moment. And then all of this will be over.

Those of you who are married, how are you getting things in order for your spouse to make it easier on them?
 
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danter0id

Member
Oct 20, 2023
38
$150k in life insurance will be all hers, and I've confirmed with the insurer that they will pay benefits if I commit suicide. ironically, the same insurer manages my long-term disability benefits, which end after 2 years for any kind of mental illness - they'd literally rather I get it over with and die quickly than live and collect "too much money."

other than that, she has family she can live with and who will take care of her while she grieves. and she'll find someone else quickly enough - she's beautiful and kind and brilliant.
 
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feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
Whatever I have will pass to my spouse and they have family I'm sure they will move closer to. They may have to get a job and live in a more economical way but I feel confident they will be just fine and possibly even better off without me as I am a total drag since losing my son.
 
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let.me.let.go87

let.me.let.go87

Meh
Jul 12, 2024
300
My husband knows I'm suicidal. But he's half the reason. All we do is fight most of the time and he prefers his videos games over me. He's never home anyway. He just got a second job that pays more so he'll be fine. We can't afford life insurance unfortunately tho.
 
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Kusogaki

Kusogaki

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Mar 22, 2023
127
Whatever I have will pass to my spouse and they have family I'm sure they will move closer to. They may have to get a job and live in a more economical way but I feel confident they will be just fine and possibly even better off without me as I am a total drag since losing my son.
If you don't mind me asking i knowthis must be personal but how did you lose your son