Method This sucks!

[Stan Swiftie]

My dream is to die in my sleep, but it doesn't look like that's gonna happen.
I've tried sleeping pills - 100 with water once & 50 with liquor twice - obviously sleeping pills only make you sleep... No matter how many you take & with what. So that's out.
I've been told carbon monoxide in a garage doesn't work anymore because of the Cadillac converter & because shit's just safer now or w/e. So that's out.
Jumping off the roof of my hotel is out because 5 stories isn't enough. I'll just break some bones or end up paraplegic.
Drano tastes horrible, so drinking a container of it is out. Plus, the gagging & choking sucks.
I really don't wanna jump in front of a fucking train, but RN that's looking like what I have to go with.
I don't wanna strap a bag around my head so that takes out a method or a few.
I'd like to O.D., but it seems like you have to take a medley of different meds that aren't exactly easy to get in order to do that.
I'm beginning to think I'm just stuck in my forever alone & miserable pointless pathetic existence.
If only I could be okay with the loneliness & emptiness inside. Then I wouldn't even be suicidal.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I just wish to cease existing painlessly as well, I just want a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep with no more pain and no more suffering and I see so much cruelty in how that is denied for me as all I hope for is to never exist ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.