Discussion This is it, I guess.

[t0rch]

I'm waiting for my antiemetics to dissolve. By then, I'll eat my chloroquine ice cream and sleep.

Mods, if I don't reply to this thread in 48 hours with "ffs, I guess I'll try jumping off a bridge instead" then assume I'm gone for good.

So yeah, goodbye, I guess. I hope everyone finds their peace :)! Whether that's through death or other alternatives.

 

[gurowuro]

good luck and we all hope you find your peace

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

May you find eternal peace ❤

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for, best wishes.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck and may you find peace! All the best!

 

[freonix]

i hope everything goes well and you find the peace you're looking for

 

[t0rch]

my goodness even with ice cream it taste so bitter….!

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Thanks everyone <3

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anyone has any tips for consuming this? I think I should have put the powder in water and drank it all instead of in ice cream gosh it taste absolutely gross

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I think I found a way to consume this. I'll just eat a scoop and then down it with some insanely sweet elderflower water hahaha

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Looking back on my life, it's kinda funny. There wasn't anything extraordinary great, or painful. Just plain nothingness. I wonder what my life would have been like without depression. Perhaps I would've got into the university I aspired to go. Perhaps I would've become a physicist, working at the edge of STEM and making unprecedented discoveries. Perhaps I'll open a cafe with my partner. Perhaps I'll have a normal life. Perhaps I won't be here, dying. I still have quite a few scoops of this death ice cream to go. But this does feel like the end. I've been planning this for a while now. I'll be at peace. Finally
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Out of curiosity, what would've everyone otherwise do if you could get rid of everything you don't want in this life? As for my case, my depression.

 

[ringo99]

Farewell friend. Hope you find the peace you were looking for.

 

[t0rch]

My body feels heavy. Very heavy. My breath are slowing down
Holly shit I nearly vomited
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I vomited. I fucking vomited.
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Fuck. Fuck.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck
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Fuck. Someone please just LET ME DIE LET ME DIE
it's so gross

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

So brave
I'm so angry that I just can't suck it up and try.
That's my whole life
Scared of trying

my goodness even with ice cream it taste so bitter….!

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Thanks everyone <3

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anyone has any tips for consuming this? I think I should have put the powder in water and drank it all instead of in ice cream gosh it taste absolutely gross

——

I think I found a way to consume this. I'll just eat a scoop and then down it with some insanely sweet elderflower water hahaha

——

Looking back on my life, it's kinda funny. There wasn't anything extraordinary great, or painful. Just plain nothingness. I wonder what my life would have been like without depression. Perhaps I would've got into the university I aspired to go. Perhaps I would've become a physicist, working at the edge of STEM and making unprecedented discoveries. Perhaps I'll open a cafe with my partner. Perhaps I'll have a normal life. Perhaps I won't be here, dying. I still have quite a few scoops of this death ice cream to go. But this does feel like the end. I've been planning this for a while now. I'll be at peace. Finally
——

Out of curiosity, what would've everyone otherwise do if you could get rid of everything you don't want in this life? As for my case, my depression.

I honestly can't think of anything
I'm so jaded and done that if I was granted the wish to be anyone I want
I'd rather be a angel watching and protecting people
I'd never want to live again