Venting Thinking about how it will affect those around

[Reflection]

I think that my parents and siblings would be devestated, I don't know whether my ex would feel anything, and honestly I don't care if she does or not care about me, I just want to end this pain...but sometimes I find myself worrying about her too, even though she blocked me thinking it's all going to be over, because if I CTB then it might affect her life given we go to the same college, and no one knows how those around might react...at least I did all I could to try and not reach this outcome.

 

[rollingthunder]

This is one of the main things holding me back... Despite all the pain some of my loved ones have caused me, I still love and care about them. And I know this will destroy them. But continuing to live is destroying me... and it's getting harder to keep putting other's needs above my own.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I worry about this too. I just hope that when I do go the person who finds me will not be someone I know.