My boyfriend has been asking me to open up to him for a while now and tonight I did. I used to be open about how I was feeling but now it's harder I just feel pathetic. I feel pathetic typing this out.
I kept things very brief. Just said thay I'm stressing about money, incredibly lonely. Some other unnamed things. He made a joke asking if I was pregnant then a comment asking if I was on my period. Hes got friends who he talks to all the time and who he can see whenever and yet he tried to say he understood. I don't have anyone at all. He just dismissed what I said and what I was trying to tell him. Why ask if you are just going to ignore it? I just feel so stupid for even trying to communicate. Things are really bad for me right now and now I feel like I need to prove it's bad. It's a running theme throughout my life of people dismissing my mental health issues. I feel like I need to ctb to just prove that there is something wrong with me.
I kept things very brief. Just said thay I'm stressing about money, incredibly lonely. Some other unnamed things. He made a joke asking if I was pregnant then a comment asking if I was on my period. Hes got friends who he talks to all the time and who he can see whenever and yet he tried to say he understood. I don't have anyone at all. He just dismissed what I said and what I was trying to tell him. Why ask if you are just going to ignore it? I just feel so stupid for even trying to communicate. Things are really bad for me right now and now I feel like I need to prove it's bad. It's a running theme throughout my life of people dismissing my mental health issues. I feel like I need to ctb to just prove that there is something wrong with me.
