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[LetzteAusfahrt]

Struggling today with ctb thoughts. Woke up this morning in the mood. I'm hoping it goes away soon

There are 2 ways to get these thoughts away

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

How's @not-2-b-the-answer doing today?

I wanna know too

Hi guys... sorry I got tired & went to be before I saw your message. I'm ok ... other than still wanting to die. Got my first good nights sleep in over a week.
How is everyone today ?

 

[XYZ]

Hi guys... sorry I got tired & went to be before I saw your message. I'm ok ... other than still wanting to die. Got my first good nights sleep in over a week.
How is everyone today ?

I've been better but I've also been worse. Thx for asking.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

How is everyone today ?

Explanation :
What I am planning does not violate the law in force in my country and is legal

I plan to document my ctb with SN and will therefore not be alone. An observer will write for me in the forum, even if I can no longer myself.

Everything is prepared, there are only a few days left.

Today I get the message that the observer has been in a clinic since today and is unavailable.

I could puke

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Struggling today with ctb thoughts. Woke up this morning in the mood. I'm hoping it goes away soon

That's pretty much how the day has been for me so far. It sucks feeling like this.

There are 2 ways to get these thoughts away

What 2 ways are those? A lighter and a big fat joint?

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Explanation :
What I am planning does not violate the law in force in my country and is legal

I plan to document my ctb with SN and will therefore not be alone. An observer will write for me in the forum, even if I can no longer myself.

Everything is prepared, there are only a few days left.

Today I get the message that the observer has been in a clinic since today and is unavailable.

I could puke

Sorry your plans were temporarily interrupted. Selfishly ... I'm happy you are still with us.

 

[Squiddy]

There are 2 ways to get these thoughts away

How? It feels impossible lol

That's pretty much how the day has been for me so far. It sucks feeling like this.



What 2 ways are those? A lighter and a big fat joint?

Yeah it does and a joint sounds nice. I've slept half the day and feel lazy as hell

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

That's pretty much how the day has been for me so far. It sucks feeling like this.



What 2 ways are those? A lighter and a big fat joint?

I honestly don't know if I should give you a hug for your post or a like because the second part was funny.

So... I can do both here.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

How? It feels impossible lol

Either feet first or head first.
Somehow they have to carry you out.

 

[Squiddy]

Either feet first or head first.
Somehow they have to carry you out.

I really gotta stop napping throughout the day. I feel worse after doing so and my ctb thoughts are stronger. I hope while driving, a car strikes me or something. I won't cause it though

 

[faraway_beach]

The Wonder Wheel park was not able to open all summer, but at least on weekends they had a pizza stand and a souvenir stand. I would go by almost every weekend and pick up a small souvenir, as it was my only way to support the site. I was hoping to go again tomorrow, but they posted that the souvenirs and pizza were finished for the summer, and they're looking forward to their 100th season of operation in their 101st year of existence. I'm not going to make it. I hope I last long enough to vote. Everything just looks so bleak.

 

[Squiddy]

Well I didn't get struck driving to Wendy's, but it was good (the food)

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Sorry your plans were temporarily interrupted. Selfishly ... I'm happy you are still with us.

Did you miss me ?

It's gotten harder to write, but I would never just leave without saying goodbye. I'm too old and too well brought up for that

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Hi guys... sorry I got tired & went to be before I saw your message. I'm ok ... other than still wanting to die. Got my first good nights sleep in over a week.
How is everyone today ?

No need to apologize, I've been doing okay. Glad to hear you finally got some rest!

Explanation :
What I am planning does not violate the law in force in my country and is legal

I plan to document my ctb with SN and will therefore not be alone. An observer will write for me in the forum, even if I can no longer myself.

Everything is prepared, there are only a few days left.

Today I get the message that the observer has been in a clinic since today and is unavailable.

I could puke

I'd hold out for them if you can. Many of us don't get the luxury of having company in our final moments.

 

[Squiddy]

Woke up. Ctb thoughts are strong right now, but I'm hoping they go down

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Woke up. Ctb thoughts are strong right now, but I'm hoping they go down

Did you sleep okay atleast?

 

[Squiddy]

Did you sleep okay atleast?

Sleep was meh. Had dreams about my bullies again, but what's new

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Did you miss me ?

It's gotten harder to write, but I would never just leave without saying goodbye. I'm too old and too well brought up for that

I think we all miss you. I don't know if I will be able to say goodbye. I have failed a few times. I don't want to make a goodbye post, if I can't go through with it.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I think we all miss you. I don't know if I will be able to say goodbye. I have failed a few times. I don't want to make a goodbye post, if I can't go through with it.

I'm not making a goodbye thread either because I don't believe it's goodbye. It's more like I'll see you on the other side.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I'd hold out for them if you can. Many of us don't get the luxury of having company in our final moments.

I have partners and observers if everything works out. Champagne and chips to nibble on while I'm turning blue.

We will see

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

No need to apologize, I've been doing okay. Glad to hear you finally got some rest!

Those days don't happen often so it's nice when they do.
Even on days off usually something is going on so I can't get a good nights sleep.


I'd hold out for them if you can. Many of us don't get the luxury of having company in our final moments.

I have to agree ... if it is possible. Wish that was possible in the U.S.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I have partners and observers if everything works out. Champagne and chips to nibble on while I'm turning blue.

We will see

Oh wow, sounds like a party almost lol. Sure as hell beats dying alone, scared, and in pain.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I think we all miss you. I don't know if I will be able to say goodbye. I have failed a few times. I don't want to make a goodbye post, if I can't go through with it.

You are here in the forum much longer than me. Some think that means that you are a scared cat.

If you've been at it for so long and have already made a few attempts, then you know very well that this is not true. Every attempt needs the courage and determination to ctb. And it takes a lot more courage to go on living after trying. If it doesn't work, it's no shame, we weren't hosting a competition here.

It doesn't matter how often you fall. The only important thing is that you get up again.

You can and will say goodbye to us, I know that.

Make me proud old boy

Oh wow, sounds like a party almost lol. Sure as hell beats dying alone, scared, and in pain.

I know and think that I am a very happy boy to be allowed to die like this

I'm not making a goodbye thread either because I don't believe it's goodbye. It's more like I'll see you on the other side.

I try to remember that and will use it that way if you allow me

 

[Squiddy]

In the event I do decide to ctb, I might post a goodbye thread, but I'm not sure yet

 

[Brick In The Wall]

You are here in the forum much longer than me. Some think that means that you are a scared cat.

If you've been at it for so long and have already made a few attempts, then you know very well that this is not true. Every attempt needs the courage and determination to ctb. And it takes a lot more courage to go on living after trying. If it doesn't work, it's no shame, we weren't hosting a competition here.

It doesn't matter how often you fall. The only important thing is that you get up again.

You can and will say goodbye to us, I know that.

Make me proud old boy



I know and think that I am a very happy boy to be allowed to die like this



I try to remember that and will use it that way if you allow me

By all means it's your party! I hate to see you go because I do enjoy your posts here. But that's the nature of this place and indeed life itself.

I'm here to lend an ear and support for you in whatever you do decide.

 

[Squiddy]

Just went out and got some cake. Happy early birthday to me (24th) even though I'll get more this month lol

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Just went out and got some cake. Happy early birthday to me (24th) even though I'll get more this month lol

So happy birthday then.

Usually, I actually condulate

 

[Squiddy]

So happy birthday then.

Usually, I actually condulate

Thanks :)

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I just had a surreal and somewhat unpleasant experience.
A giant house spider the size of a golf ball just ran up my bed, over my chest and tried to sit on my face.
I'm not afraid of spiders but I nearly went to brown alert.

Spoiler: Warning, terrifying spider image

What's worse, is the little fecker will wait until I put the lights out to come and play on my head.

 

[Squiddy]

I just had a surreal and somewhat unpleasant experience.
A giant house spider the size of a golf ball just ran up my bed, over my chest and tried to sit on my face.
I'm not afraid of spiders but I nearly went to brown alert.

Spoiler: Warning, terrifying spider image

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What's worse, is the little fecker will wait until I put the lights out to come and play on my head.

Quick burn the house down!