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restlesseyes

Type of tired no amount of sleep can fix
Feb 19, 2025
28
I feel like there are so many great and helpful people on these forums and it's so sad when you reading all the messages they sent same as when you are talking to somebody on here and then realized they CTB it just breaks my heart….. clicking on there profile and seeing they haven't been active in few weeks , months or years but I know they are in a better place so that helps and that's what they wanted , I want it to so I understand , one thing these forums have motivated me to do is try and help as many people before I go if anybody wants to talk please PM
 
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ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
154
I know what you mean. It's eery to stumble across a profile which went silent years ago, and knowing the likely reason.

I've interacted with a lot of great people here, and I at least hope that our conversations have helped them feel calmer on the more stressful days. It's a weird mental gymnastics situation where my heart wants to help them decide against CTB (of course I don't say this to them as I understand this is 100% their choice and some random dude on the internet isn't going to change that), but then being convinced of the inevitability and, I guess, the necessity of my own CTB. Even though I know these two thoughts contradict each other, I imagine quite a few people here experience a similar thing.
 
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rs929

Arcanist
Dec 18, 2020
445
In my experience, when I'm in remission I don't want to visit this site anymore.(then I relapse and come back)
So I wouldn't assume that inactive people have CTBed. I suspect the majority of them just got better and gave life another chance
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Member
Jan 12, 2025
51
it's like the life itself. you get to know people whom you will cease to see one day. either because they're gone or they recovered.
 
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waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
259
it does hurt to see this, but i think we all understand it
 
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maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,384
I feel like there are so many great and helpful people on these forums and it's so sad when you reading all the messages they sent same as when you are talking to somebody on here and then realized they CTB it just breaks my heart….. clicking on there profile and seeing they haven't been active in few weeks , months or years but I know they are in a better place so that helps and that's what they wanted , I want it to so I understand , one thing these forums have motivated me to do is try and help as many people before I go if anybody wants to talk please PM
Me too. It rips my heart out too.
It made it very hard for me to consider ctb 🤗🌹💔
 
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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
44
I feel like there are so many great and helpful people on these forums and it's so sad when you reading all the messages they sent same as when you are talking to somebody on here and then realized they CTB it just breaks my heart….. clicking on there profile and seeing they haven't been active in few weeks , months or years but I know they are in a better place so that helps and that's what they wanted , I want it to so I understand , one thing these forums have motivated me to do is try and help as many people before I go if anybody wants to talk please PM
I was talking to @Queermelancoly and @hikikomorizombie and they announced their CTB before they disappeared. Their suicide was not in vain, because it changed me and made me conceive of death as a real possibility in every day.

Special thanks to Queer. We had a lot of fun on this forum
 
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LigottiSchopenhauer

Student
Jan 7, 2023
124
In my experience, when I'm in remission I don't want to visit this site anymore.(then I relapse and come back)
So I wouldn't assume that inactive people have CTBed. I suspect the majority of them just got better and gave life another chance
Yeah I didn't post here for about six months but that's because my life was going better for a while. Now it's back to being shit so here I am again lol
 
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opheliaoveragain

Eating Disordered Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
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I feel like there are so many great and helpful people on these forums and it's so sad when you reading all the messages they sent same as when you are talking to somebody on here and then realized they CTB it just breaks my heart….. clicking on there profile and seeing they haven't been active in few weeks , months or years but I know they are in a better place so that helps and that's what they wanted , I want it to so I understand , one thing these forums have motivated me to do is try and help as many people before I go if anybody wants to talk please PM
I hear you. most of the best authored threads are by those who are no longer here, I relate to the reaction of realizing the date, over and over. the best we can do while here for whatever reasons is be kind to each other, try not to spread fearmongering or blatant misinformation, and do our best to be respectful of others, even if we all don't always see eye to eye. sending love to you op. 🫂🫂🫂
 
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WhatCouldHaveBeen32

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Oct 12, 2024
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This website makes me pretty happy to be honest. It's something we accept here, the fact that some of us can't get better, the harsh reality with no bullshit to cover it. I hate humans even more because of it being the truth and I'm happy because it pushes me forward to my goal of getting the fuck out of here.
 

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