The police came to my house

[Verklempt]

I was on a Crisis text line and I guess the person tracked my location and sent the police to my house. They came at 1 am knocking at my house, they said they were here because of a suicide threat. They got mixed up with my sister name. And I was too scared to speak up.
Long story short, my family slowly found out I was suicidal. My sister blamed me for having depression and that I shouldn't be feeling this way since I have so much, and that people have it worst. That I should grow up and stop being a baby. I don't know what to do now. All of this feel so unreal, I want this to end. I'm going to therapy soon. I'm scared.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I've heard of them tracking people and doing this even though it's suppose to be anonymous. I'm sorry this happened to you.

 

[Shero]

My sister blamed me for having depression and that I shouldn't be feeling this way since I have so much, and that people have it worst. That I should grow up and stop being a baby.

Sorry to being so blunt, but your sister is a ignorant, disrespectful and unsensible human being. You should not listen to her.
Its good that you try out therapy, we are here for you and support you. You are not alone, remember that.

 

[helIboy]

Sorry to hear that, I will always stay away from things like that

 

[Verklempt]

This was during the same time this site was broken. I thought that my phone was being watched and that they blocked this site. I was so scared and shaking. I'm so glad the site is back up again.

 

[Shero]

This was during the same time this site was broken. I thought that my phone was being watched and that they blocked this site. I was so scared and shaking. I'm so glad the site is back up again.

Don't worry, this won't happen anytime soon. The forum staff are knowledgable and experienced people.

 

[Flippy]

This was during the same time this site was broken. I thought that my phone was being watched and that they blocked this site. I was so scared and shaking. I'm so glad the site is back up again.

I thought the exact same thing! :-0

 

[Thereisnothing]

I used to go on Facebook and talk to people when suicidal BIG MISTAKE. I was only talking to so called friends on there and posting on my page but had Police round several times. I can see why people do this sort of thing but really is not nice when it happens so can understand how you are feeling. Police were very understanding about it but happened so many times I got a warning in end. They advised me stay off any social media which have done, had no probs since. Not many in outside world can cope with suicide threats, even those close to us often cant grasp it. I know my estranged sister at the time it happened said I was babyish and attention seeking, which was far from the truth. What made it worse was, I told the 'friends' never to call for help, so they disrespected my wishes, so bad, although I suppose only human nature to try and stop someone.

 

[foreveryoung]

Crisis text line

Did you contact them on your own? Even under the harsh circumstances you are under, its really a bad idea to contact anyone, I wouldn't even tell my parents or my best friends. Once they know you are harming yourself, they think its their absolute right to "save you" despite stepping all over your so called rights. I know It's hard, but you have to be more cautious.

 

[Shinbu]

Your sister sounds harsh, and cold. "People have it worse" that phrase makes me uneasy. So someone who is suffering less shouldn't feel suicidal because others have it more worse? O_o. Everyone has different capacities to tolerate pain. What is too much for others can be little for others vice versa.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

A woman I don't know lied to the police, and a police officer perjured himself to take out a criminal charge, maybe because of the bus?

Are you facing criminal penalties? Have you retained counsel?

 

[Verklempt]

Did you contact them on your own? Even under the harsh circumstances you are under, its really a bad idea to contact anyone, I wouldn't even tell my parents or my best friends. Once they know you are harming yourself, they think its their absolute right to "save you" despite stepping all over your so called rights. I know It's hard, but you have to be more cautious.

Yes I contacted them first. I was going through something deep and I just wanted to talk to someone. I used that crisis line before and nothing happen, except for what happen last night. I won't use that crisis again, I'm traumatized.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Did you contact them on your own? Even under the harsh circumstances you are under, its really a bad idea to contact anyone, I wouldn't even tell my parents or my best friends. Once they know you are harming yourself, they think its their absolute right to "save you" despite stepping all over your so called rights. I know It's hard, but you have to be more cautious.

Harming yourself? As far as I know there is no suffering after death. How then are you 'harming yourself'? Do you know something I don't?

 

[Verklempt]

Harming yourself? As far as I know there is no suffering after death. How then are you 'harming yourself'? Do you know something I don't?

Yes, I did stated I was harming myself. Big mistake

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Your sister sounds harsh, and cold. "People have it worse" that phrase makes me uneasy. So someone who is suffering less shouldn't feel suicidal because others have it more worse? O_o. Everyone has different capacities to tolerate pain. What is too much for others can be little for others vice versa.

Sister sounds young, and scared to me. If I found out that someone I loved planned to kill themselves my first reaction would definitely be surprise, and given the advent of the police arriving, I cannot be sure what I would say, but certainly exonerating myself could well be a top priority.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I called once and thought I covered my tracks pretty well. Later on the police called me with my real name. I played it off but I learned that the crisis line is pointless. They can find you regardless. I'll never make that mistake again. I hope you're feeling better.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Yes, I did stated I was harming myself. Big mistake

Sorry Hon. I am confused...did you tell them you were cutting/something or did you tell them you were suicidal. I have encountered a similar situation a few years back, but I did not even have a computer. Still chills me to the bone when I think about what happened. Like the gestapo coming late at night...really scary. Hugs Verkle. Oh...I was not suicidal at the time, and had conveyed nothing to anyone. My situation made a forum impossible. You need a computer for that.

 

[woxihuanni]

And exactly what else would happen calling a crisis line? Jesus.

 

[TAW122]

I'm really sorry to hear about this happening to you. It's definitely a gross violation of your privacy and rights as a human being. I do agree with @foreveryoung here about not contacting them (the hotline whether phone or text) or telling your parents, best friends, or anyone like that for the risk of being hospitalized or forced against your will.

@Broken Chimera I'm sorry to hear about that and yes, what you said is true based on what I've heard from others and read on reddit (in the past).

 

[ctbUniquectb]

Harming yourself? As far as I know there is no suffering after death. How then are you 'harming yourself'? Do you know something I don't?

I wanted to give this a second love

So here it is

I called once and thought I covered my tracks pretty well. Later on the police called me with my real name. I played it off but I learned that the crisis line is pointless. They can find you regardless. I'll never make that mistake again. I hope you're feeling better.

That's my main concern about this site

 

[helIboy]

This was during the same time this site was broken. I thought that my phone was being watched and that they blocked this site. I was so scared and shaking. I'm so glad the site is back up again.

You can look into joining the discord, that will always be up when the site is down to ease your mind :)

 

[ctbUniquectb]

You can look into joining the discord, that will always be up when the site is down to ease your mind :)

Yeah I joined cause the site being wonky rattled me

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Punch your sister and then tell her people have worse pain than that, quit complaining like a baby.

J/k

Seriously, though, her message is a defense. She's minimizing your pain so she can manage.

Therefore she's not in your support system, nor is the crisis line. SS peeps are! Who else?

Maybe you can say this to your family (or even to yourself):

"You're making this about you. I am in pain and seeking solutions, hence the crisis line. I am working with my therapist. Please give me space. If you need support, please see your own therapist. I will not discuss this further until you are able to recognize what is about me and what is about you."

 

[foreveryoung]

Harming yourself? As far as I know there is no suffering after death. How then are you 'harming yourself'? Do you know something I don't?

Haha. Should have said once they believe you are doing something to harm yourself. its all a subjective experience, nobody really knows whos doing what.

 

[trouble]

I'm sorry that happened to you, that must've sucked. Also, your sister's rude for saying that. :/
I wasn't aware of the fact they would ACTUALLY track your location, though.

 

[JSauter]

I agree that it's a privacy violation to an extent - if you don't give them your personal details and address, it should not be expected that they arrive at your home... however a crisis line's purpose is to prevent suicides. If you told them you were going to kill yourself, it should not be unexpected that they try to do just that. It's not surprising that they work with some local gov't and law enforcement to find addresses of people that call.

Often people on this message board get angry that they receive kitschy and platitudinous responses when they tell people they're suicidal. But what exactly do these people expect? Them to nod in agreement and encourage you to do it? There is no use in telling others you're going to kill yourself if you're not interested in them doing anything but agreeing with the endeavor.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

And exactly what else would happen calling a crisis line? Jesus.

Your post is really unclear. Seems like it's shaming the OP for calling a crisis line and having her private life invaded.

 

[S1mpleme]

What is a crisis text line?

 

[Quarky00]

Your sister is ignorant and abusive!

 

[Deleted member 1768]

I'm sorry that happened to you, that must've sucked. Also, your sister's rude for saying that. :/
I wasn't aware of the fact they would ACTUALLY track your location, though.

Yep...so-called mental health workers are sick puppies, and lie at the drop of a hat. Makes them feel superior I suppose. Little people with way too much power.