I honestly think suicide is the perfect ending for me. I won't be a hassle to anyone any longer. I figure dying now while I'm still loved by few is a far better option than ruining all my relationships then dying with no one to remember me. I suppose it's selfish but part of me just doesn't care anymore. I still hate to think about how sad my family will be but I'm afraid this feels like the best option. I won't be around to worry them anymore at least, I suppose that's the silver lining. I remember seeing a quote somewhere (i can't remember where) that went along the lines of "living for the sake of others is a weight too heavy to carry forever", I don't think I've ever heard anything so true.
At least my memory won't be tarnished by the mistakes I know I'll make in the future if I keep living. I plan to do it this Friday (hence the name). Hopefully I go through with it this time.
At least my memory won't be tarnished by the mistakes I know I'll make in the future if I keep living. I plan to do it this Friday (hence the name). Hopefully I go through with it this time.
