The only thing I look forward to is sleep

[borderlinee]

I can't even enjoy anything anymore, I'm not excited for any part of the day. I dread waking up, I'm always so bored, I wish I could sleep all day and not worry about anything. Life on antipsychotics is hell, but sadly I am too afraid of death. Why can't I just ctb?

 

[sserafim]

I can't even enjoy anything anymore, I'm not excited for any part of the day. I dread waking up, I'm always so bored, I wish I could sleep all day and not worry about anything. Life on antipsychotics is hell, but sadly I am too afraid of death. Why can't I just ctb?

Same, I wish I could sleep forever and never have to wake up ever again.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Same, sleep is the only time I'm out of pain. Unfortunately, I have bad insomnia and I usually only get 5 hours a night.

 

[divinemistress87]

Sleeping is like being dead without the commitment

 

[matt1968]

Yes, the same with me.

Sending all my best wishes.

 

[borderlinee]

Same, sleep is the only time I'm out of pain. Unfortunately, I have bad insomnia and I usually only get 5 hours a night.

Same here, I struggle with in the middle of night insomnia, I'm sorry you are going through this.

 

[F@#$]

I sleep like a motherfucker, like all fuckin day if I can get away with it. Fuck the world anyway.

 

[mona_lisa]

I can't even enjoy anything anymore, I'm not excited for any part of the day. I dread waking up, I'm always so bored, I wish I could sleep all day and not worry about anything. Life on antipsychotics is hell, but sadly I am too afraid of death. Why can't I just ctb?

Same over here, especially over the past few months I've been sleeping more and more. People keep calling me lazy but honestly I don't care anymore. I wish I'd never wake up. I'm in a bit of a similar dilemma, I really do want to ctb but I'm a bit of a coward in the face of pain. I haven't been able to work up the nerve.

 

[Homo erectus]

It is probably the best thing to die in a sleep (regular sleep, not the last sleep at the end of long suffering). Maybe someone can design a sleep detecting drug release device for that.

 

[ctbcat]

'eternal sleep' is the best part of ctb... can't wait.

 

[FutureHanger]

I'd sleep all day if my trauma didn't keep me too alert but unfortunately it does but sleep is also my fav part of the day

 

[Pluto]

 

[FuneralCry]

I really hate how there isn't the option to just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep, I just wish to sleep as well, to me it'd be incredibly relieving to be able to just fall asleep eternally.

 

[Arachno]

I also don't have too many things to look forward to, Sometimes I wish I could sleep for a long ass time or just die in sleep and have nothing to stress over.

'eternal sleep'

Man I love that term

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

i've been having so much trouble sleeping - i did get sleeping pills so i am excited to try it and feel even more zonked out.

I either love sleep or baths - everything else is too stressful, too social, too 'have to make money'... i don't want to be here. I tried. I really did. I just want to sleep forever. That would solve it all

 

[anonymousfoxxo]

Relatable. I also feel tired and shitty all the time. Sleep is hellish with nightmares, but it's still better than reality for the most part.

I last week went with a breakdown to the doctor. Got new antidepressants. All I ended up getting from that is 3 calm days, and I completely lost my libido while feeling the exact same way as I have before. Tired of all.

I have some ups too. I met someone yesterday. But I don't know how long that'll last. I wish I could just sleep forever.

I hope you get the time to sleep like you wish to.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Same here. I like sleep though I sadly get depressed in the morning again as I'm still alive and not dead

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

I used to feel the same however sleep doesn't nail it anymore.

I hate having to go to bed now when i feel tired, i'm trapped within my mind for several hours since i'm an insomniac that can go to bed early and still be awake at 7am.

I usually take paracetamol as my wonder drug to help in extreme depression blips and sleep that is extra shite.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Sleep is my trouble. I just slept 6 hours last night. I take mirtazapine every 3 days.

 

[Joker2003]

I definitely enjoy sleeping.

It's the only time where I'm not worried or anxious.

 

[outrider567]

I can't even enjoy anything anymore, I'm not excited for any part of the day. I dread waking up, I'm always so bored, I wish I could sleep all day and not worry about anything. Life on antipsychotics is hell, but sadly I am too afraid of death. Why can't I just ctb?

Not me, although sleep is essential, I constantly dread it because of my continuous bad dreams and nightmares

 

[Csmith8827]

I can't even enjoy anything anymore, I'm not excited for any part of the day. I dread waking up, I'm always so bored, I wish I could sleep all day and not worry about anything. Life on antipsychotics is hell, but sadly I am too afraid of death. Why can't I just ctb?

I know how you feel. Sleep is peace from all of this chaos and a refuge from the bs. I have trouble sleeping at night sometimes... mostly if I'm not tired but I totally wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up to this "reality" I'm in.

 

[whats_the_point]

Sleeping is like being dead without the commitment

In another reality, I'd love to quote this on my Whatsapp profile.
I like sleeping but it's so hard to come by. Anxiety barely lets me get an hour of deep sleep.

 

[Meteora]

Same. I just look forward to sleeping again. And always hope that for some very extraordiary miracle I will never wake up again.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

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