the loneliest thing you've done

[ImsooDone1N]

I think the loneliest thing I've ever done was sat in the waiting room at Penn Station (loneliest place on earth) by myself & read or listened to a mixtape on repeat. I wasn't taking a train anywhere.

That was on a weekend when I was ditched by friends, but didn't wanna return home just yet & have my Family think I was a loser or worse feel bad for me.

 

[ExitTheDay]

Loneliest thing I've done was surround myself with people who never made me feel like they were truly my friends

 

[tomz323]

Loneliest thing I've done was surround myself with people who never made me feel like they were truly my friends

This, fucking hell. I couldn't of put it better myself. Been looking for a way to express some of the issues with my life. Thank you.

 

[ExitTheDay]

This, fucking hell. I couldn't of put it better myself. Been looking for a way to express some of the issues with my life. Thank you.

Yeah dude fuck people, I like being alone most of the time

 

[tomz323]

Yeah dude fuck people, I like being alone most of the time

Same, I always feel like I'm pretending to be someone I'm not when I'm with people who are my "friends"

 

[ExitTheDay]

Same, I always feel like I'm pretending to be someone I'm not when I'm with people who are my "friends"

Same here, it's all a fucking facade when I'm around other people, I'm not myself ever and I hate being that way...

 

[noonetoo]

When I was in my late teen years, I used to go to the gym because I had nothing to do and I was desperate for a bf or some sort of attention. Out of all the time I spent there, only 1 guy hit on me and I waited for days for him to call. He never did. Also tried dating sites and I used to stay online for most of the day waiting for messages. Most that messaged were people that didn't really care for conversation. I ended up meeting 2 guys off of there that were only interested in using me. Couldn't even take me out on a nice date at least. Then men started sending mean messages to me because they always saw me online. I cried and deleted my account.

I've been in several situations where I ate alone in a cafeteria full of people. It was embarrassing. The few times I tried to sit with acquaintances, they were saving the seats for their actual friends. That really f***ing hurt.

I've satten in libraries and in bathroom stalls during lunch time praying time would go by so no one would see how much of a loner I was.

I talk to myself in my head. I talk to myself out loud when I'm really depressed and crying my eyes out.

I'm embarrassed that I've been a loner most of my life. I really wish I could've been normal and had people who love me. I barely get a happy birthday. I removed it off Facebook so people would forget me.

This is all I can name for now.

 

[Imgonnadie]

taking walks hoping I'd meet someone
having imaginary conversations with people out loud
feverishly searching for youtube videos that give me sense of social interaction

 

[Roger]

Setting the dining table for one.

Night after night after night . . . . .

 

[Help_Me]

Talking to myself aloud and with imaginary friends, spending time with them. I once went to museum or small exhibition alone (I got angry with my gf and decided to go there alone) . Imagine guys, a small exhibition full of people, couples and friends. Even the security guards felt sorry for me ! They offered me to make photos of me cause I obviously couldn't make photos myself as I am alone. Dang, that was one of those days I would define myself as an absolute sucker..

 

[azucaramargo]

I decided years ago to travel alone to meet new people, but I can say that I probably passed a week without a single decent conversation...

I hear that! My travels abroad have been some of the loneliest times -- even in places in which I spoke the local language. I would talk to myself as I walked down the street sometimes.

Social media can become an addiction as bad as any drug where the need to pretend popular is the only way to get a fix.

This is awesome!

 

[StillWaiting]

Going to a beach and go for a walk?

 

[Severen]

Being in a serious relationship with a girlfriend who made me feel alone 24/7. Because at least when you are single, nobody is rubbing it in your face.

 

[Ruffian]

I agreed with too many things to reply to. I did. wonder if some of the posts about eating, movies, walks, museums, alone are from not being near a large city? I do a lot of things alone and it's lonely, but to me it's better than being with someone who makes me feel bad. I see a lot of other people doing stuff alone too. Even at bars I see dudes alone just watching a game or whatever. Maybe they're lonely? That being said, even in my romantic relationship I can feel lonely. I push everyone away and then wonder why I'm alone and hate myself. Then the next day congratulate myself for not needing anyone. Classic borderline. Alright, I'm disciplining myself and getting off of here for awhile.

 

[MartEU]

I go to concerts alone pretty "regularly", I basically sat in my room all day using drugs last year so that was pretty bad.
To be honest I don't really know what a lonely thing to do is, I kinda enjoy being by myself/alone.
Oh yea I remember, I used to work at festivals and I would always go to the employee lounge and drink beer by myself when my shift was finished.

 

[Severen]

I go to concerts alone pretty "regularly", I basically sat in my room all day using drugs last year so that was pretty bad.
To be honest I don't really know what a lonely thing to do is, I kinda enjoy being by myself/alone.
Oh yea I remember, I used to work at festivals and I would always go to the employee lounge and drink beer by myself when my shift was finished.

Germany?

 

[LaBrava]

I've been to the cinema on my own hundreds of times, in fact probably it runs to four figures. Also been to galleries and museums on my own hundreds of times. Been on holiday on my own about a dozen times. The latter had moments when I did feel pretty alone, especially in the evenings when there isn't sightseeing to fill your time. Pretty much all of my good memories are solitary, as well as many bad ones.

 

[MartEU]

Germany?

No, but I'm pretty close hahaha
I'm from Holland

 

[Severen]

I hear that! My travels abroad have been some of the loneliest times -- even in places in which I spoke the local language. I would talk to myself as I walked down the street sometimes.

This is awesome!

I only experienced that in countries, where people are really xenophobic or where people hate people from certain countries.

No, but I'm pretty close hahaha
I'm from Holland

Awesome. Frinkandel is the best. :P I've been to Venlo and Alkmaar.

 

[MartEU]

I've been to the cinema on my own hundreds of times, in fact probably it runs to four figures. Also been to galleries and museums on my own hundreds of times. Been on holiday on my own about a dozen times. The latter had moments when I did feel pretty alone, especially in the evenings when there isn't sightseeing to fill your time. Pretty much all of my good memories are solitary, as well as many bad ones.

How is traveling alone? Reckon it must be a pretty nice experience.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

The loneliest thing I've ever done was trying to confide in "friends" whom I mistakenly thought actually cared and understood me.

 

[Severen]

The loneliest thing I've ever done was trying to confide in "friends" whom I mistakenly thought actually cared and understood me.

Sociopaths despise weakness.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

Sociopaths despise weakness.

hmmm...I wouldn't call my friends sociopaths. More like pro-lifers who believe in the "Think positive" mentality.

 

[Severen]

hmmm...I wouldn't call my friends sociopaths. More like pro-lifers who believe in the "Think positive" mentality.

You can be surprised.

 

[LaBrava]

How is traveling alone? Reckon it must be a pretty nice experience.

I'm a very solitary person and never had a partner so it's been the only way for me, but I have enjoyed the freedom you have to do and see what you want. It is tough occasionally because if any snags occur you only have yourself to rely on in a strange country to figure out what to do. But overall for me it was pretty good.

 

[Robbyna]

I spent most of last year ruining my life by doing drugs alone everyday after work...when I went. It was so lonely and I quickly spiraled out of control destroying any relationships that I did have. My God do I wish for a time machine!

 

[azucaramargo]

The loneliest thing I've ever done was trying to confide in "friends" whom I mistakenly thought actually cared and understood me.

That sucks! And, yes, that kind of betrayal is incredibly alienating.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Probably trying to make friends online having failed to do so in real life. Any takers?

 

[azucaramargo]

Being in a serious relationship with a girlfriend who made me feel alone 24/7. Because at least when you are single, nobody is rubbing it in your face.

I can relate to this, too.

 

[Darkarage]

I did a travel through an active volcano zone. The volcano caused a natural disaster, and I wanted to see it all by my own.