The last few mins before ctb

[farakini]

Lately I've been wondering what ppl feel or think about when they're preparing to ctb….mixing their poison, setting up a noose, standing at the edge of a cliff or building, gun to head…whatever method they choose. I sometimes picture myself doing it and wonder if I'll be ready or I'll get scared and hold back. I feel so proud of ppl when they post their 'goodbye' thread and get excited because it gives me confidence to ctb, but I get a little sad because I'll be alone in my last moments.

 

[Someone123]

I think a big focus for some people has to be that they have done enough to be able to get peace- only 1 in every 23 attempts in the u.s. is successful. This number is so low due to a large number of attempts by cuttig and pills, both of which work less than 2% of the time. Partial also seems to have a very low success rate.

 

[FuneralCry]

Maybe they are just hoping to be free from this life. That is what I would hope for just before I leave this world, finally being gone does sound ideal and to me is the best thing possible. But those who are gone are really lucky, I will always envy them as they cannot suffer anymore.