The Guilt

[lizzywizzy09]

I'm here researching ctb methods and get a notification from my brother inviting me out for Xmas. Fuuuuuuck, the guilt. Why did it have to be this way

 

[AmericanMary]

It does hit kinda hard, ay? I've been feeling this too. A legit good guy who has expressed his feelings for me keeps inviting me to do stuff a few weeks out. I feel horrible. Either accept knowing I won't be there or don't accept and seem like a bitch.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

It does hit kinda hard, ay? I've been feeling this too. A legit good guy who has expressed his feelings for me keeps inviting me to do stuff a few weeks out. I feel horrible. Either accept knowing I won't be there or don't accept and seem like a bitch.

I just know no matter what it's going to be bad. Either I die or I linger with all my physical and mental health issues and burden everyone. I can't stand it.

 

[AmericanMary]

I just know no matter what it's going to be bad. Either I die or I linger with all my physical and mental health issues and burden everyone. I can't stand it.

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. You're brave for talking about it<3

 

[Egroeg91]

It always comes when you least expect it, I hate this specific feeling, why can't everything be simple and easy? Some things are just so difficult

 

[justpeachyyyy]

I've learned to try and look forward to these small things until I inevitably do it because once I'm gone, I'm gone you know. I understand not being able to help feeling guilty, most of us can't help but go through that too. If they truly were able to understand what we go through I think they'd be a bit more understanding of it.