The endgame

[leavingsoon99]

I just returned home from a vacation and a (sort of) break from the internet. I'm now on the home stretch of my life. I practiced dry-firing this morning and will again tonight. I've bought very powerful JHPs and all my financial arrangements. I've set my date and am very confident in my method. I am wondering if I should leave a note for the office and maintenance personnel who will find my body, apologizing for the appearance and smell of the corpse. I decided against doing it in a hotel room. I just want to be in the comfort of my own place. I may do it sooner, as my SI is waning to the point of non-existent.

I enjoyed my vacation, and really saw what beauty this life does have to offer. I even met a gorgeous woman and spent time with her. That made me feel very happy. I'm very at peace with my decision to move forward with self-terminating. I realize that, for me, it's the right thing to do. It's a relief, really. It's like the final days of high school. I have 'senior-itis' with life. Anyway, I just wanted to write this. I don't know why, but just wanted to.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm glad you feel at peace with your decision. I'm hoping I will feel the same if and when my time comes. It's also good you got to enjoy life a bit on the run up.

Yes- I think it's only fair to leave a note warning people to call the authorities. It sucks that we have to traumatise other people but may as well try and minimize it as much as possible. I even thought about leaving the police and people who have to clean up some cash (depending on how much I have left of course!) I do feel bad for them. They're just people doing a job at the end of the day. Who really wants to deal with corpses? Coroners and undertakers I suppose... Still- there's probably some legal bullshit that means they couldn't take it...

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved to be leaving, I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you eventually find the freedom you wish for.

 

[tirednorthernsoul]

I just returned home from a vacation and a (sort of) break from the internet. I'm now on the home stretch of my life. I practiced dry-firing this morning and will again tonight. I've bought very powerful JHPs and all my financial arrangements. I've set my date and am very confident in my method. I am wondering if I should leave a note for the office and maintenance personnel who will find my body, apologizing for the appearance and smell of the corpse. I decided against doing it in a hotel room. I just want to be in the comfort of my own place. I may do it sooner, as my SI is waning to the point of non-existent.

I enjoyed my vacation, and really saw what beauty this life does have to offer. I even met a gorgeous woman and spent time with her. That made me feel very happy. I'm very at peace with my decision to move forward with self-terminating. I realize that, for me, it's the right thing to do. It's a relief, really. It's like the final days of high school. I have 'senior-itis' with life. Anyway, I just wanted to write this. I don't know why, but just wanted to.

Out of curiosity, what caliber of gun and type of JHPs are you going to use? I'm planning to go out the same way. Best of luck to you.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I'm happy for you that you had a great vacation. Also that your si is virtually zero.
I would definitely leave a note for the staff.