Venting The Disaster

[Blueberry Panic]

You are a fucking disaster.

You leave wreckage everywhere you go and act like you're surprised when no one wants to stay. You want to be loved but you push it away like it's poison. And when people finally walk, you act like you're the victim.

You're selfish. You're manipulative. You ruin shit just to feel something, and then cry when there's nothing left.

You break yourself on purpose — and then demand someone else come fix you. But no one's coming. Not anymore. Because they're tired. Tired of giving you chances. Tired of hoping you'll grow. Tired of the black hole that is your guilt, your self-pity, your endless need to be punished.

And you know what's worst?

You want to feel hated. Because if someone hates you, at least it means you matter. That's how low you've sunk — feeding off pain like it's the only thing real.

But guess what? You don't scare anyone anymore. You just exhaust them.

And if you don't stop — if you don't get help, or face your shit — you will lose everyone. Even the ones who still give a damn.

 

[gottacheckout]

Well put, you have an ability to write in a way that it is easy to read.

 

[sambrosia]

This is literally me. My former friend said it shortly before he stopped being my friend — "why is everywhere you go a trail of grief and destruction?"

Sigh.

Thank you for writing.

 

[Elsie]

It's so relatable