Venting The day is coming soon and i cant cope

[otoyikim]

The date i had made for my suicide is coming and i am increasingly terrified.

I tried to push it away as far as possible but i think i have finally reached the end.

Any ideas on how ro spend my last days so i am at least a little relaxed when the time comes?

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are searching for

 

[Sunset Limited]

I can't give you advice, I can only tell you about myself. I've been here for a long time. I planned CTB 3-4 times and I felt like you. I don't know, maybe I still had hope. That's why I was afraid. Now, I really feel old and have no hope, no expectations. I'm convinced about CTB. Of course, I'll be afraid when my time comes. That's the price of freedom from pain, and I have to pay it. Like everyone else... I wish you the best.

 

[NegevChina]

The date i had made for my suicide is coming and i am increasingly terrified.

I tried to push it away as far as possible but i think i have finally reached the end.

Any ideas on how ro spend my last days so i am at least a little relaxed when the time comes?

There is no answer to this question. I've been wanting to CTB for close to 2 years, got all the equipment I need, still cant find the relaxed mood to do it. I lost all hope and every time i delay i feel ive gained nothing.

 

[VegasLyra]

The date i had made for my suicide is coming and i am increasingly terrified.

I tried to push it away as far as possible but i think i have finally reached the end.

Any ideas on how ro spend my last days so i am at least a little relaxed when the time comes?

A sober mind is the enemy. Get drunk