akrasia

akrasia

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Feb 11, 2020
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I planned to ctb a week from today but it would have to postpone. I planned to ctb when my family is going camping. But since the corona virus, it's most likely they would have to cancel their trip. I planned to ctb numerous times before but I keep postponing it because of minor inconvenience. I hate my self so much right now, if only I did it before non of this would happen. Life is so unfair, I want to end my suffering but it wants me to stay in this hellhole.
 
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theguineapigking

theguineapigking

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Dec 5, 2019
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That's really upsetting. I'm very sorry. The feeling of being trapped and unable to end it is very disheartening.



Maybe you'll get lucky and they'll still go anyways?



Just try to enjoy yourself as much as possible. Tv or whatever. Hang in there. Hopefully this stupid problem will be done with soon. Then maybe toilet paper won't be out of stock everywhere.. ;)


If you need to talk,I'm here.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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I planned to ctb a week from today but it would have to postpone. I planned to ctb when my family is going camping. But since the corona virus, it's most likely they would have to cancel their trip. I planned to ctb numerous times before but I keep postponing it because of minor inconvenience. I hate my self so much right now, if only I did it before non of this would happen. Life is so unfair, I want to end my suffering but it wants me to stay in this hellhole.

Sorry you are going through this. :aw: I totally understand, I hate this hellhole as well. :angry:
 
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faust

faust

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Jan 26, 2020
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I am sorry your plans are not working as intended.
Give it a bit more time :hug:
 
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issyishere

issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
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dude i feel you so much. i was planning summer when my parents go to Europe but they've suspended all flights and now i'm just taking care of them, making sure they're okay. I have everything I need to go but no time to do it. Fuck this stupid virus.
 
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MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This is the fierce last stand of all I am
Dec 8, 2019
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I understand!

This virus is bringing about all kinds of disruption.

Sorry it has delayed your CTB, mine has been delayed too but for other reasons.

If you need to talk, feel free to message
 
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Iloveyouall

Iloveyouall

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Feb 12, 2020
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Ceasing to breath is not something that should be taken carelessly. The fact that you postponed because of minor inconvenience means that you consider the importance of that act. This is a moment that should be as perfect as possible. It's the last thing you'll get to do on this little rock, it must be done your way.
I can imagine how you feel and why you hate yourself right now ; it may sound dull and easy to say but I personally think you should on the contrary love yourself for being careful about maybe the most important and personal thing you'll get to do in your life.
I don't know why you want to ctb and I actually selfishly want you to reconsider but I respect your choice anyway, no matter your reasons, it is your life. If you need someone to talk, about anything, don't ever hesitate. :heart:
 
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