Steff1337
Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
- Jun 21, 2024
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Same here, though I actually almost attempted at 11 and had a couple at 12. Before then there are records of suicidal ideation (I think the youngest was around 6, I talked about wanting to die and stab myself in the eye with a pencil) but these were very on/off and I'm not sure they would count as the consistent ideation this post is looking for.Since 11 years old (or even more, I think maybe 10-9), I wasn't completely innocent. When I was 12 I started to get more depressed (mostly because of the bullying) and since 14 I started SH and feeling real, real bad. In 16 the idea of CTB was completely evident, and when I turned 18 things calmed a bit, but I was still thinking about it. A couple years passed and I didn't got help since a few months ago. And I feel only the meds are doing all the job, honestly.
When I was like 11 or so I attempted with my air rifle, yeah, I know, stupid. But in those times my little dummy mind didn't know any methods and though a 5,5mm little steel pellet could seriously kill me. Thankfully I didn't do anything.Same here, though I actually almost attempted at 11 and had a couple at 12. Before then there are records of suicidal ideation (I think the youngest was around 6, I talked about wanting to die and stab myself in the eye with a pencil) but these were very on/off and I'm not sure they would count as the consistent ideation this post is looking for.
One funny anecdote was telling my mom at 8 about how I wanted to die and she was like "what? you're 8, what would you want to die over". The idea was so ridiculous to her it just didn't make sense lol. If only she knew what was in my head at that time
Yeah. I don't know at that age if the attempt necessarily needs to be a good one for it to count, just the sentiment being there is enough to show a real level of misery that no kid should feel at that age. Just goes to show if we were a bit smarter we might have solved this problem a lot sooner lol.When I was like 11 or so I attempted with my air rifle, yeah, I know, stupid. But in those times my little dummy mind didn't know any methods and though a 5,5mm little steel pellet could seriously kill me. Thankfully I didn't do anything.
that is mine - I started having the thoughts when I was 14 and then made my first real attempt when I was 15. Ever since it has filled my head that has lead to various attempts over time.12" but I've always had those urges in my head ever since. I've never not thought of CBTing that's my reality.
that is mine - I started having the thoughts when I was 14 and then made my first real attempt when I was 15. Ever since it has filled my head that has lead to various attempts over time.
For me its never "if" I CTB its a matter of "when" and when seems to be sooner and sooner