Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
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I want to give a huge thank you to @SinisterKid our newest Superman moderator.
We sometimes forget our mods are in the same boat as us, wanting to CTB. We also forget that they have feelings, develop friendships and death's hurt them and affect them also.
Sinister suffered 2 deaths recently of people he was close to, the latest being one that he knew would be especially hard on me @Stan.
Sinister signed in this morning and checked in on me immediately. He also wrote that beautiful post on @Stan's goodbye post.
After that, he sent me a PM before he deactivated @Stan's account. I can't imagine what deactivating a friends account is like. When I have to put one of my cats to sleep, I cannot sign the papers. I feel as if I am the one that sanctioned their death and the guilt is unbearable.
Yes, it's his job as mod, but I cannot fathom how difficult it is to deactivate the account of someone you are close to.
@SinisterKid goes beyond the call of duty as a moderator to send many of us a friendly message, just when we need it.
Sinister first came to me with a friendly message after he saw me meltdown when @Stan wrote his drunken quasi goodbye post, and I am glad he hasn't left.
I loved @Stan. Odd how that can happen on a forum where people are coming to die, and the last thing one is looking for is a relationship.
However, this is my life. I am going to find love at the worst time, when there is zero chance of it working out lol. Things happen when one isn't looking.
Sinister knew of my relationship with Stan. He knew this would destroy me. I am prone to impulsive attempts, and truthfully, losing Stan has put me close.
That simple gesture of telling me he would deactivate the account prior to doing so meant more to me than he could know. It is also the reason why I am typing this now and not joining Stan. Not having that warning would have pushed me over the edge.
Stan told me it isn't my time, and he is correct. Sinister kept me here.
Instead of writing a tribute to Stan (which honestly I am not stable enough to do right now), I decide to write a tribute to @SinisterKid.
Thank you to the head honcho of this forum (I apologize I don't know who that is) for making Sinister a moderator.
Most of all, thank you to my Superman @SinisterKid for being there. We are very lucky to have you and you are a bright, shining white light that brightens this horrible planet.
We sometimes forget our mods are in the same boat as us, wanting to CTB. We also forget that they have feelings, develop friendships and death's hurt them and affect them also.
Sinister suffered 2 deaths recently of people he was close to, the latest being one that he knew would be especially hard on me @Stan.
Sinister signed in this morning and checked in on me immediately. He also wrote that beautiful post on @Stan's goodbye post.
After that, he sent me a PM before he deactivated @Stan's account. I can't imagine what deactivating a friends account is like. When I have to put one of my cats to sleep, I cannot sign the papers. I feel as if I am the one that sanctioned their death and the guilt is unbearable.
Yes, it's his job as mod, but I cannot fathom how difficult it is to deactivate the account of someone you are close to.
@SinisterKid goes beyond the call of duty as a moderator to send many of us a friendly message, just when we need it.
Sinister first came to me with a friendly message after he saw me meltdown when @Stan wrote his drunken quasi goodbye post, and I am glad he hasn't left.
I loved @Stan. Odd how that can happen on a forum where people are coming to die, and the last thing one is looking for is a relationship.
However, this is my life. I am going to find love at the worst time, when there is zero chance of it working out lol. Things happen when one isn't looking.
Sinister knew of my relationship with Stan. He knew this would destroy me. I am prone to impulsive attempts, and truthfully, losing Stan has put me close.
That simple gesture of telling me he would deactivate the account prior to doing so meant more to me than he could know. It is also the reason why I am typing this now and not joining Stan. Not having that warning would have pushed me over the edge.
Stan told me it isn't my time, and he is correct. Sinister kept me here.
Instead of writing a tribute to Stan (which honestly I am not stable enough to do right now), I decide to write a tribute to @SinisterKid.
Thank you to the head honcho of this forum (I apologize I don't know who that is) for making Sinister a moderator.
Most of all, thank you to my Superman @SinisterKid for being there. We are very lucky to have you and you are a bright, shining white light that brightens this horrible planet.
