I have noticed a terrible cycle of being depressed, then wishing to CTB and unintentionally pushing people away due to depression, which leads to further desire to CTB. Then, when you try to talk to someone about what you're going through, they get upset with you, and the cycle only gets worse. How can this be overcome?
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not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
Ctb.
/sorry. Only solution I know of. Or stop trying to make others understand, they won't.
/sorry. Only solution I know of. Or stop trying to make others understand, they won't.
Bagger
Stressful
- Jun 18, 2019
- 331
I don't see the loop, so it's not a cycle but a spiral downwards. Meds can change you behavior. Did you seek some professional help?
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cryptic_cynic
Degenerate
- Jul 8, 2019
- 129
I can relate. Obviously, I don't know how to overcome it. Frankly, I don't think I personally can. Even without telling a person about my issues, they still manage to disappear anyway. The ones who don't disappear on me are just as done with life as I am.
I just recently was trying to cultivate a new friendship, but once I told them honestly how I feel, I got the old "everyone's life is hard; giving up is not an option; you just have to make different choices/ try harder" bullshit. They also implied that I'm weak because they "have been through things that would have made you kill yourself years ago."
I think certain types of people will just never understand that not everyone can react to things the way they do, and that not everyone believes life is inherently valuable or desirable even in the face of terrible suffering.
I don't really regret pushing such people away. I am the way I am because of a combination of many different factors outside of my control. If others are unwilling or unable to understand that, there's no point being around them anyway. I've tried things their way and it doesn't work for me. If they don't like it, too bad. It is what it is.
I just recently was trying to cultivate a new friendship, but once I told them honestly how I feel, I got the old "everyone's life is hard; giving up is not an option; you just have to make different choices/ try harder" bullshit. They also implied that I'm weak because they "have been through things that would have made you kill yourself years ago."
I think certain types of people will just never understand that not everyone can react to things the way they do, and that not everyone believes life is inherently valuable or desirable even in the face of terrible suffering.
I don't really regret pushing such people away. I am the way I am because of a combination of many different factors outside of my control. If others are unwilling or unable to understand that, there's no point being around them anyway. I've tried things their way and it doesn't work for me. If they don't like it, too bad. It is what it is.
Going Home
Specialist
- Sep 21, 2018
- 357
I can relate. I wish I knew the answer.
I would say be careful who you talk to. Some people see depressed people as an opportunity. The don't genuinely want to help anyway.
I would say be careful who you talk to. Some people see depressed people as an opportunity. The don't genuinely want to help anyway.
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ExitTheDay
We fight to live or live to die
- May 26, 2019
- 336
I relate to this aswell, I've pushed friends/ girlfriends away with my depression and self loathing, it's a terrible cycle that never seems to end
