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d4isy

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my life is going nowhere and i can't take it anymore. i bought a rope a few months ago but of course it had to be the wrong kind (500 kg tensile strength but you have to divide by seven to get the actual safe working load, which i didn't know at the time). ordering online is tricky because my mom has an overview of all my spendings. i'm now only left with partial (which i am not partial to anymore lol) and drowning.

maybe it won't be that bad if i take some trazodone and drink myself into a stupor. plus i'm a bad swimmer so death would be guaranteed.

idk. all i know is that i have no more fight left in me. i just want the pain to end.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
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A user long time ago made a interesting drowning method, they would bring a backpack open it and submerge themselves and huff spray deodorant with they're head in the backpack so it would make them go unconscious as they drowned.

The user died doing it .
 
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A user long time ago made a interesting drowning method, they would bring a backpack open it and submerge themselves and huff spray deodorant with they're head in the backpack so it would make them go unconscious as they drowned.

The user died doing it .
hmm. I wonder how that felt. I didn't think that spray deoderant would make you pass out. hope it was faily painless though. though I guess if they were unconcious, they probably didnt feel much pain.
 
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Jisatsu

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hmm. I wonder how that felt. I didn't think that spray deoderant would make you pass out. hope it was faily painless though. though I guess if they were unconcious, they probably didnt feel much pain.
It will , I've tested it ... you just have to take a lot in
 
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A user long time ago made a interesting drowning method, they would bring a backpack open it and submerge themselves and huff spray deodorant with they're head in the backpack so it would make them go unconscious as they drowned.

The user died doing it .
i've looked into this before..i remember that post. had no idea they ctb'd that way.

thanks for the reminder. i genuinely forgot about this method;-; sleep deprivation sucks.

dumb question, but does it have to be deodorant or would dry shampoo do the job? i have plenty of it lying around lol. also, is there a guide on how to huff deodorant? i've never done it before.
 
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ilovenewyork

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Drowning is a terrifying way to go. Your lungs burn. It's agony and struggle and panic
 
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Drowning is a terrifying way to go. Your lungs burn. It's agony and struggle and panic
i know. i'm fully aware. i've literally had fluid/mucus build up in my lungs. agonizing.

but i don't have that many options when it comes to ctb. drowning is my plan B in case i'm unable to get a proper rope for FSH.
 
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ilovenewyork

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There are a lot of options if you research, including waiting for things to get better. You know that after the struggle that has been your life you owe it to yourself to get a peaceful send off. Be fair to yourself
 
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Jisatsu

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i've looked into this before..i remember that post. had no idea they ctb'd that way.

thanks for the reminder. i genuinely forgot about this method;-; sleep deprivation sucks.

dumb question, but does it have to be deodorant or would dry shampoo do the job? i have plenty of it lying around lol. also, is there a guide on how to huff deodorant? i've never done it before.
It has to have butane in it
 
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SomewhereNew

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I've huffed isobutane before and I didn't lose consciousness it was a lot too however I did come out of my body for idk how long an out of body experience. It was like I was a camera on the wall looking down at me.

Also a separate time it was like I was no longer in my body and I was in this long hallway and some girl was jogging towards me with the most panicked look in her eyes of shock seeing me when she saw me. I can still picture her face clearly to this day it was pretty unnerving. Then I came "to" and she was sitting in the closet for a few seconds before melting into a pile of clothes.

Basically I'm saying you might not just lose consciousness like you think.
 
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Basically I'm saying you might not just lose consciousness like you think.
yeah i know, i've done a lot of research on huffing haha. that's why i'm a little doubtful of this method. most people hallucinate on butane from what i've read.
 
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