Survived, but this time it will be final

[UnlockTheShrine]

I've survived the overdose from 1.3 gram of fentanyl. It was apparently cut with ecstasy.
I was near death, it was looking pretty bad. But somehow I recovered, with just a little damage.
Spent month in psych ward.
I wish I could reverse the things I've done that brought me this chronic health issues.
After 7 years I haven't manage to heal any of them, I've got more in the course of time actually.
This time I have no other choice than consider suicide by train.
No accessible high buildings and I don't trust hanging.
This will be the last song I will listen to:



I can only hope my family will forgive me.
It will devastate them but hopefully they will recover.
I wouldn't do this, but there are 2 options:
Either suicide or continue living in pain while losing even more and finally die anyway.
Life is a brutal experience and I'm too weak for it now.

 

[Davy]

Sad to hear, I hope your are doing better!
I was planning to go the same way but I've always wondered, do they charge you for having drugs on you if you are trying to use those drugs to ctb?

 

[UnlockTheShrine]

Sad to hear, I hope your are doing better!
I was planning to go the same way but I've always wondered, do they charge you for having drugs on you if you are trying to use those drugs to ctb?

They didn't charged me cause police wasn't involved.
But yes, normally they charge you.

 

[pinkblanket55]

Sorry to hear of your experience

 

[Davy]

They didn't charged me cause police wasn't involved.
But yes, normally they charge you.

I'm glad, it would've been a real bummer if they charged you for that.
Have you considered the Sodium Nitrate method? Suicide by train may impact a lot of unnecessary people and will take a lot of courage

 

[UnlockTheShrine]

I'm glad, it would've been a real bummer if they charged you for that.
Have you considered the Sodium Nitrate method? Suicide by train may impact a lot of unnecessary people and will take a lot of courage

It will impact lot's of people, but I have no other viable choice.
I don't know about sodium nitrate methods, but I'm done with chemicals.

 

[Memento Mori]

let this be a warning for the people who praise fentanyl as an easy way to ctb.
1,3gram rlly? thats 1.300.000 micrograms, sounds like it was very bad cut.

ctb by train is not nice for the driver but i guess you also know that...
i'm sorry that you cant live with your health issues, guess you already tried hard.

SN i personally wouldn't recommend from all that i've read.
good look in whatever you decide to do, maybe you come across a miracle

 

[S5E51mbB]

SN i personally wouldn't recommend from all that i've read.

Why wouldn't you recommend SN?

 

[Memento Mori]

Why wouldn't you recommend SN?

because it seems to not act deadly for everyone, someone quoted from the peacefull pill handbook a chance of 60:40 for success, and aftereffects from surviving are ugly. don't know about irreversible damage

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

because it seems to not act deadly for everyone, someone quoted from the peacefull pill handbook a chance of 60:40 for success, and aftereffects from surviving are ugly. don't know about irreversible damage

SN is highly reversible.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I've survived the overdose from 1.3 gram of fentanyl. It was apparently cut with ecstasy.
I was near death, it was looking pretty bad. But somehow I recovered, with just a little damage.
Spent month in psych ward.
I wish I could reverse the things I've done that brought me this chronic health issues.
After 7 years I haven't manage to heal any of them, I've got more in the course of time actually.
This time I have no other choice than consider suicide by train.
No accessible high buildings and I don't trust hanging.
This will be the last song I will listen to:



I can only hope my family will forgive me.
It will devastate them but hopefully they will recover.
I wouldn't do this, but there are 2 options:
Either suicide or continue living in pain while losing even more and finally die anyway.
Life is a brutal experience and I'm too weak for it now.

How did you survive 1.3 grams?? Did you inject it or snort it?

 

[lost in my mind]

I'm so sorry for what you had to go trough and still are going trough. Hope you will get the help you need desperately and ctb wouldn't be the only option. I love you

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you peace... Don't have the guts for that myself. Hugs

 

[welshie84]

This is why if my n doesn't show up I'm doing h and f in one hit

 

[I’vehadenough]

This is why if my n doesn't show up I'm doing h and f in one hit

Did you read the thread about the person who took 1.5 grams of f and survived? I don't want to risk surviving it

 

[welshie84]

Yes I'm doing 1 gram f and 1 gram h iv. Just before that I'm ingesting 1 gram of h. Whilst I iv one gram of f under my tongue. I think this will work. I have 48 hours before I'm found

 

[I’vehadenough]

Yes I'm doing 1 gram f and 1 gram h iv. Just before that I'm ingesting 1 gram of h. Whilst I iv one gram of f under my tongue. I think this will work. I have 48 hours before I'm found

How do you iv under your tongue? Lol

 

[welshie84]

How do you iv under your tongue? Lol

I will dissolve a gram under my tongue whilst iv one.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I will dissolve a gram under my tongue whilst iv one.

In powder form or put it in a capsule?

 

[Readytogo227]

It will impact lot's of people, but I have no other viable choice.
I don't know about sodium nitrate methods, but I'm done with chemicals.

I'm worried about the amount of pain upon impact and before death. I heard that there is the possibility of still being alive for some time depending on how one does it. But I admit that I am ignorant on this method.

 

[RationalGirl]

I've survived the overdose from 1.3 gram of fentanyl. It was apparently cut with ecstasy.
I was near death, it was looking pretty bad. But somehow I recovered, with just a little damage.
Spent month in psych ward.
I wish I could reverse the things I've done that brought me this chronic health issues.
After 7 years I haven't manage to heal any of them, I've got more in the course of time actually.
This time I have no other choice than consider suicide by train.
No accessible high buildings and I don't trust hanging.
This will be the last song I will listen to:



I can only hope my family will forgive me.
It will devastate them but hopefully they will recover.
I wouldn't do this, but there are 2 options:
Either suicide or continue living in pain while losing even more and finally die anyway.
Life is a brutal experience and I'm too weak for it now.

Did you survive because you were found or just because the F didn't work to get you to the CTB level?
does anyone know more about why "Unlocktheshrine" wasn't able to CTB with the 1.3g of what she ordered?

Did you read the thread about the person who took 1.5 grams of f and survived? I don't want to risk surviving it

Can you please tell me more about the person who took 1.5g and survived?

 

[Beside You In Time.]

Did you survive because you were found or just because the F didn't work to get you to the CTB level?
does anyone know more about why "Unlocktheshrine" wasn't able to CTB with the 1.3g of what she ordered?

Can you please tell me more about the person who took 1.5g and survived?

The lethal dose of fentanyl is generally stated to be 2 milligrams.

 

[RationalGirl]

The lethal dose of fentanyl is generally stated to be 2 milligrams.

That's what I hear. But hard to believe when you have so many people surviving doses that are supposed to be supposedly impossible to survive. Given all the survivals with Fentanyl I am no longer a believer in it or any other drug. Too risky waking up alive.

 

[enjolras]

because it seems to not act deadly for everyone, someone quoted from the peacefull pill handbook a chance of 60:40 for success, and aftereffects from surviving are ugly. don't know about irreversible damage

60:40 success ...that's misinformation. That's not an extract from the PPeH.
Reliability is rated 7/10 with some uncertainty but Nitschke keeps repeating how it has been a game changer and I've never seen him talk orally about caution from the existence of failures

For the rest, please care to elaborate

 

[Beside You In Time.]

That's what I hear. But hard to believe when you have so many people surviving doses that are supposed to be supposedly impossible to survive. Given all the survivals with Fentanyl I am no longer a believer in it or any other drug. Too risky waking up alive.

The reason why they "survived" is that they weren't actually sold Fentanyl.

Per Wikipedia (you know, the online encyclopedia)

Fentanyl - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

The intravenous dose causing 50% of experimental subjects to die (LD50) is "3 mg/kg in rats, 1 mg/kg in cats, 14 mg/kg in dogs, and 0.03 mg/kg in monkeys."[63] The LD50 in mice has been given as 6.9 mg/kg by intravenous administration, 17.5 mg/kg intraperitoneally, 27.8 mg/kg by oral administration.[64] The LD50 in humans is unknown,[65][66] but a lethal dose for the average person is estimated to be 2 mg.[50][67]

 

[Lightyagami]

very sorry for u and the Train driver who will never forget what u done

 

[Alec]

very sorry for u and the Train driver who will never forget what u done

Train driver will get over it, it's sad but they'll get over it, stop trying to guilt trip people.

 

[Beside You In Time.]

Train drivers hitting and killing people is part of their job.