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limone

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Yes, I know it will hurt but not too long. However I won't need to repeat.
Aren´t you worried that it will be uncomfortable?
Yes, I know it will hurt but not too long. However I won't need to repeat.
 
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Am I allowed to say that this terrifies the shit out of me?
 
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limone

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I want it to be effective. Even if the price is some pain
 
CoolGuy9

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Am I allowed to say that this terrifies the shit out of me?
Yes. The fear of death is quite natural and atleast for me, I am scared of the fact that I may die soon and this will be the better option.
 
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limone

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Yes. The fear of death is quite natural and atleast for me, I am scared of the fact that I may die soon and this will be the better option.
I am scared too...but there is not another option.
 
Jodes

Jodes

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i hate to say it but given what we're talking about...

there is another option, not CTB?
 
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limone

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Mar 28, 2019
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I've prepared everything. The only one I need to do is to noose my neck and kick out the stool. Very soon
 
Jodes

Jodes

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Nov 23, 2018
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You should have had your own thread.. sorry random point I just feel compelled to mention it
 
CoolGuy9

CoolGuy9

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Mar 5, 2019
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I've prepared everything. The only one I need to do is to noose my neck and kick out the stool. Very soon
I will give one last shot at therapy. If it will fail then I will be in the same situation as you. To think that I might have to choose between ctb or torture and the option of putting a rope around my neck and fading away while it being the last thing I ever do is so horrifying.
 
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Cookiedough8956

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Am I allowed to say that this terrifies the shit out of me?
same here
..Hanging really scares me. Every part of it.
SOmething really creepy and eerie about it : /
Thats why I'd rather OD, use SN, N, you know stuff like that..
 
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limone

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I will give one last shot at therapy. If it will fail then I will be in the same situation as you. To think that I might have to choose between ctb or torture and the option of putting a rope around my neck and fading away while it being the last thing I ever do is so horrifying.
The most important for me: this scenario will be non-reversible.
You have everyone with you whatever you choose. And you know how everyone feels :(
Thank you so much
The most important for me: this scenario will be non-reversible.

Thank you so much
I've prepared clothes I gonna wear for the event
 
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Mar 3, 2019
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I've prepared everything. The only one I need to do is to noose my neck and kick out the stool. Very soon
Once you choose to do full suspension, you need to be brave because once you go full by kicking the stool away. There will be no turning back. Either you suffer a little and die, or you survive because the rope broke.

For me, the hardest decision I've ever faced is doing the full suspension. When I'm prepared, the last moment when I wanted to kick the stool. I just can't. Even tho I wanted tho. I just couldn't control My leg to kick the stool. That's why I hate full suspen and prefer going partial
 
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limone

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Once you choose to do full suspension, you need to be brave because once you go full by kicking the stool away. There will be no turning back. Either you suffer a little and die, or you survive because the rope broke.

For me, the hardest decision I've ever faced is doing the full suspension. When I'm prepared, the last moment when I wanted to kick the stool. I just can't. Even tho I wanted tho. I just couldn't control My leg to kick the stool. That's why I hate full suspen and prefer going partial
The rope won't break, it's thick, 3/4". I know, no way back.
 
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Mar 3, 2019
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The rope won't break, it's thick, 3/4". I know, no way back.
Then you only need one thing, brave. Trust me, deciding whether to kick the stool will be the hardest choice in your life. Unless you are lot more depressed.
 
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Yes, best wishes to you. I really find full suspension scary and couldn't do it. But partial confuses me so much I had to stop reading about it. I will try researching it later because I think it's a decent method. Although you're not the first person who said they struggled with it. I hope things work out for you.
 
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Yes, best wishes to you. I really find full suspension scary and couldn't do it. But partial confuses me so much I had to stop reading about it. I will try researching it later because I think it's a decent method. Although you're not the first person who said they struggled with it. I hope things work out for you.
Thank you. I hope it will hurt only several seconds and will go peacefully. I need words of support...thanks.
Then you only need one thing, brave. Trust me, deciding whether to kick the stool will be the hardest choice in your life. Unless you are lot more depressed.
I know...I hope I will manage to do it bravely
 
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limone

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Good luck my friend, I hope it goes well for you.
Thanks for support. The worst would be remain alive brain damaged or paralysed. Thus I have planned everything that it won't happen.
I gonna wear skinny jeans and black t-shirt, barefoot
 
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Thanks for support. The worst would be remain alive brain damaged or paralysed. Thus I have planned everything that it won't happen.
It won't happen, if you go full suspension, goodluck my friend. We will meet on the other side.
 
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It won't happen, if you go full suspension, goodluck my friend. We will meet on the other side.
yes I will, no way back
Of course I'm scared by pain, irreversibility and "nothing"afterwards
 
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Mar 14, 2019
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I will give one last shot at therapy. If it will fail then I will be in the same situation as you. To think that I might have to choose between ctb or torture and the option of putting a rope around my neck and fading away while it being the last thing I ever do is so horrifying.
can a bedsheet be used..?.or a scarf and window grill..? What kind of knots should be used
 
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can a bedsheet be used..?.or a scarf and window grill..? What kind of knots should be used
The knot I use are called as slipknot. You can check. It on YouTube for tutorial
 
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