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angie

angie

need to exit
May 25, 2018
480
This is my first post here.
I'm lost on the Boulevard of Broken Dreams....nothing left to live for.
Maybe some of you know that painting called "Boulevard of Broken dreams" of James Dean by Helnwein....that could be me.
i'm terminally ill and struggle each day . just wish the end would come peacefully for me now
 
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BobbyPellitt

BobbyPellitt

Leap of Faith
Sep 4, 2019
83
constantly living in anxiety, unable to connect with another human being.
 
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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

Visionary
Sep 9, 2019
2,151
This is my first post here.
I'm lost on the Boulevard of Broken Dreams....nothing left to live for.
Maybe some of you know that painting called "Boulevard of Broken dreams" of James Dean by Helnwein....that could be me.
Hi, It such a lovely turn of turn of phrase, it looks more like a photo than a painting! I guess thats called photorealist art or something like that.
 
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Corraled

Student
Oct 11, 2019
125
Its a backdoor in case of emergency. Wherever i am, i have a way out.
 
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mycabbages

mycabbages

still here
Oct 23, 2019
67
I tried but I'm so tired now.
 
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AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
149
nobody cares anymore, not even me (struggle to believe if anyone ever DID actually care because of their actions now, as if it was all a lie)
 
Sweet517

Sweet517

Member
Oct 5, 2019
26
For me- Given my age, I have assessed all that my life has been (plenty of good- but so many struggles) against how I have been feeling every single day for a year now & what my life could be in the future: I've done the 'calculations' for the potential of leading a satisfactory life for the rest of my days-and I don't like the conclusion. I think that is basically a one sentence summation - you?
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
Spent so much time in the past I lost my future and I still can't reconcile all the trauma I was hung up on
 
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TroubledTroglodyte

TroubledTroglodyte

Member
Nov 16, 2019
9
Suicide is the ultimate act of rebellion.
 
Sweet517

Sweet517

Member
Oct 5, 2019
26
Worked all my life and too much in debt to retire and debts will cancel upon my death and kids will get life insurance
Shit, I really don't want to die!!!
 
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PDAnnie2610

Waiting for my bus.
Oct 27, 2019
701
Deep sense of longing to belong, love and be loved, but knowing that it is out of reach, with isolation, loneliness and rage being my companions - suicide is a permanent solution to the permanent problem which is me.
 
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truthseeker

Student
Sep 9, 2019
123
My failing health surpassed my depression as I knew it would eventually.
 
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selfconnected

selfconnected

Member
Nov 18, 2019
15
I just don't think life really suits me, or I guess I'm not suited for life.
 
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robin999

robin999

broken </3
Mar 8, 2019
54
i feel so numb, i'm stuck in a continuous loop of sadness.
 
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Lotus1818

Lotus1818

Experienced
Nov 4, 2019
248
I'm scared of living not for death
 
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Hel

Member
Mar 30, 2019
94
I'm so sorry to hear this :(

Thank you. The worst part if that I keep fighting, I would do anything to be good enough. But I can't and I rather be dead than a whole life like this
 
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GIRL502Hopelessness

Member
Nov 18, 2019
14
Me siento tan cansada, solo quiero paz, no puedo seguir luchando
 
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Poptart

Poptart

Try me Frozen
Nov 7, 2019
96
I dont want to be alone for a few more decades.
 
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Nozzlehead

Member
Nov 15, 2019
58
Huge amounts of potential suffering in the future, low amounts of potential joy in the future.
 
Moonstruck

Moonstruck

Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters.
Sep 18, 2019
23
I can't live with the guilt.
 
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Dear_headlights

Member
Nov 18, 2019
8
I asked my mum if i was ever happy the other day and she said "not really", if its been going on for my whole life how could it ever change?
 
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imstillhungry

imstillhungry

Student
Nov 19, 2019
109
Abusive family, abusive ex (who I truly believe was the love of my life and I could never love anyone the same way again), crippling loneliness, being a failure going nowhere in life, having nothing and no one to live for.
 
APharmaDestroyedLife

APharmaDestroyedLife

Your RX drugs are likely your real problem
Nov 4, 2019
305
Non treatable disabling terminal illness.
 
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AnnaJaspers

AnnaJaspers

Experienced
Jul 2, 2019
217
I can't function in this world.
 
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