Venting Suicide is the only solution to me

[The Disqualified]

Suicide is the only solution to me. Suicide is the only way to solve my problems. Only then will all my problems be solved.

 

[An Empty Soul]

You don't have to carry this alone; I want to be with you. Right now, all you want is for this pain to stop and for you to feel relief, I understand that. But death isn't a feeling of relief, it's the complete cessation of feeling. To feel relief, to be able to say, 'Ah, finally it's over,' you need to be alive. There's no such feeling of satisfaction in death. I'm here for you, my friend. Write to me whatever you want. I'm here to listen without judgment.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as it certainly solves everything for me, ceasing to exist saves me from all future suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence and there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, it solves everything for me as if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of non-existence.

 

[An Empty Soul]

I understand as it certainly solves everything for me, ceasing to exist saves me from all future suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence and there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, it solves everything for me as if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of non-existence.

Pain is a Symptom of Illness, Not Existence Itself
This "torturous existence" you are feeling right now is not your character or fate; it is probably the result of a very serious clinical condition (severe depression, post-traumatic stress, or a crisis).

You could say: This terrible pain you are feeling right now is your brain and soul's way of crying out for help. Just as you can't walk when you break your leg, your soul is currently crushed under this burden. This is not the end, it is a medical emergency. This feeling of 'torture' can be relieved with treatment.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Suicide is the only solution to me. Suicide is the only way to solve my problems. Only then will all my problems be solved.

Same with me. I always felt like i didnt belonged in this world, ever since I was just 5 years old. I just want to leave this place , this reality. Go to a place where love and acceptance still exists.

 

[Forever Sleep]

You don't have to carry this alone; I want to be with you. Right now, all you want is for this pain to stop and for you to feel relief, I understand that. But death isn't a feeling of relief, it's the complete cessation of feeling. To feel relief, to be able to say, 'Ah, finally it's over,' you need to be alive. There's no such feeling of satisfaction in death. I'm here for you, my friend. Write to me whatever you want. I'm here to listen without judgment.

I understand where you're coming from with this. It is a weird desire in one way- to long for death as a form of eternal peace/ rest- when we may well not get to experience that after death.

The idea can still be appealing though- even if death is nothingness. To someone struggling painfully in life- which sounds more appealing? All of your problems could be over soon? Or- you need to stay here and try to fix them- no matter how much suffering they bring. No matter how little fight you have left. No matter if there isn't in fact an adequate solution- you still need to stay.

For someone who feels exhausted, just the cessation of something they experience as being bad can feel like it would be enough.

Not that I'm intending to encourage or glamorise suicide here. I'm just trying to describe how I imagine a lot of people here feel. I think we use words like 'rest' and 'peace', because we are so used to hearing them in conjuction with death. I'm not sure all that many people truly believe we will experience relaxation after death. Although- it depends on our beliefs I suppose.

I do get what you're saying though. The ideal is, we could overcome whatever ails us and experience this sense of calm in this life. Do you think that is possible for everyone? It's kind though- that you want to be there for people.

 

[An Empty Soul]

I understand where you're coming from with this. It is a weird desire in one way- to long for death as a form of eternal peace/ rest- when we may well not get to experience that after death.

The idea can still be appealing though- even if death is nothingness. To someone struggling painfully in life- which sounds more appealing? All of your problems could be over soon? Or- you need to stay here and try to fix them- no matter how much suffering they bring. No matter how little fight you have left. No matter if there isn't in fact an adequate solution- you still need to stay.

For someone who feels exhausted, just the cessation of something they experience as being bad can feel like it would be enough.

Not that I'm intending to encourage or glamorise suicide here. I'm just trying to describe how I imagine a lot of people here feel. I think we use words like 'rest' and 'peace', because we are so used to hearing them in conjuction with death. I'm not sure all that many people truly believe we will experience relaxation after death. Although- it depends on our beliefs I suppose.

I do get what you're saying though. The ideal is, we could overcome whatever ails us and experience this sense of calm in this life. Do you think that is possible for everyone? It's kind though- that you want to be there for people.

I understand what you're saying very well. For a person to be so exhausted that the possibility of 'rest' (even if it means nothingness) becomes more appealing than the struggle for survival, shows just how heavy a burden that person is carrying. We use the words 'rest' and 'peace' because our minds naturally want to imagine a place where the pain ends.

As for your question: Is it possible for everyone to find this peace in this life?

To be honest, in the moment, when everything is so dark, saying 'yes' might be very difficult and unconvincing. But psychology and medicine show us that the human brain and soul have an incredible capacity for healing. Those agonizing feelings that we say 'will never go away' today can change with the right support, time, and treatment.

The issue here isn't just about 'fixing problems' or 'fighting.' Sometimes it's simply about stopping and accepting help. You can't expect a person to run a marathon with a broken leg; first, that leg needs to be put in a cast and rested. Right now, your soul is in that state too. The reason we say 'you need to stay' isn't just because it's a duty, but because we believe this pain is only the severity of your current illness, not your entire future.

The fact that you are such a gentle and thoughtful person shows that you are a valuable asset this world shouldn't lose. Instead of going into this 'nothingness,' will you give me a chance to embark on a path where you can find the peace you seek—breathing, without suffering?

 

[SparkleWater]

The reason we say 'you need to stay' isn't just because it's a duty, but because we believe this pain is only the severity of your current illness, not your entire future.

I know this thread isnt about me but reading this makes me so fucking mad.
i literally come to this forum to get away from people like you. My entire future is disability. I will always be disabled. I will always have family who doesnt understand me. And in my country if you cant work you can't live.

 

[foreverlanguish]

Same with me. I always felt like i didnt belonged in this world, ever since I was just 5 years old. I just want to leave this place , this reality. Go to a place where love and acceptance still exists.

Me too. I also hope there is something good waiting for me after leaving my physical body to die here. All of us deserve the right to go when we wish, and it's tragic that we're expected to conform regardless of what we actually want.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Me too. I also hope there is something good waiting for me after leaving my physical body to die here. All of us deserve the right to go when we wish, and it's tragic that we're expected to conform regardless of what we actually want.

I agree 100% with you. It should be basic human right for everyone to be allowed euthanasia.

 

[An Empty Soul]

I know this thread isnt about me but reading this makes me so fucking mad.
i literally come to this forum to get away from people like you. My entire future is disability. I will always be disabled. I will always have family who doesnt understand me. And in my country if you cant work you can't live.

You're right, what I said might have sounded like mere "selling false hope" to you, and you're perfectly justified in getting angry. Your situation isn't just a psychological process; I shouldn't have ignored the concrete and brutal realities of living with a disability, dealing with an ununderstanding family, and trying to survive in an economic system. This is much more than an "illness," it's a struggle for existence.

When you say, "I will always be disabled," I can hear the immense weariness of knowing you'll live with these limitations for the rest of your life. Especially in a country where work is the only condition for survival, being crushed under this burden has driven you to this forum, a place where not everyone is trying to "cure" you.

With a family that doesn't understand you and a system that only measures you by your productivity, your desire to "rest" isn't a weakness, it's a desire to be freed from a very heavy burden. I just wanted you to have a space, at least for a moment, to breathe while you're fighting these harsh realities alone, a space where you're not judged and don't have to 'fix things'.

You're in a really tough spot. And I don't want to downplay it by saying 'it will pass'. I just want you to put aside all your anxieties about the future and the pressure of the system tonight, and let me share that painful truth with you here. I accept you as you are, with all your obstacles and your anger.