Discussion Suicide due to hypersensitivity to sound and movement

[StolenLife]

I've had this since I can remember. It is one of the reasons why my social life was the way it was. Now that it improved a little, I remembered how much I hate sounds produced by others. Doorbell ringing, phone ringing, opening and closing of doors. Also movement is just exhausting, especially moving from one town to another. I feel somehow exposed though I don't know why. The thought of everyone being able to call me from anywhere in the world fills me with nausea. I remember as a two year old throwing a fit over my mum constantly rocking me back and forth in the stroller.
Does anyone else have this and how do you cope? What even is this shit? This alone makes me wanna do it.

 

[jodes2]

Cos of my ASD I have times when I'm sensitive to noise etc too, it was hard. I dare say I imagine it's how PTSD can be?

Ugh yeah moving is hell I'm so glad I've put my student days behind me! Enough of that thanks!

I hope you find a way to cope, I hope you don't CTB, it would be sad to lose yet another person but we understand if you do, if it's all got too much. I just hope you give it some time and try to get professional help for it if you haven't already sorry you're suffering

 

[IDontLikeMyself]

I don´t have the issue with movements. But I am also really sensitive about sounds. I seem to hear everything at an amplified volume and also hear things most people just don´t hear. For me silence just doesn´t exist because even when I am all alone in my room with nothing around me I can hear the static of every electrical device in my room.
My way of coping with this is either just listening to music all the time when I don´t need to "interact" with people to drown out all the other sounds. When I am in class or in social settings where listening to music is considered rude, I wear earplugs.
I don´t know if this is any help for you or if you have tried it before. But I really hope someone here can give you some good advice :).

 

[freevoid]

I strongly relate. Definitely sounds like sensory sensitivities.

Have always had sensitivity to sounds in the way that produced a strong emotional reaction (or Misophonia for short). Hearing repetitive noises, whistling or anyone eating literally makes me want to scream. Bash my head against a wall. Get physically violent with the person making the noise. My brain goes from 0-100. Then on top of that it just general sensitivity to all noise, and everything. I can hear the electronics in my house. When people look at me I can literally feel their gaze on my skin, physically, like something is lightly caressing me. Sudden loud noises send my brain into meltdown mode and it generally takes the whole day to comedown from the fight/flight adrenaline activation. Crowds are horrendous. Being the centre of attention makes me want to die. Emotional conflicts are the worst - it takes weeks, months sometimes for my brain to "come down" from the event. It just replays and replays constantly, always with that wave of adrenaline/panic. Like PTSD. I've had insomnia since I was a kid. Pre-medication it took me 3-5 hours to fall asleep (if I did at all). Any little noise could wake me up.

It's all so tremendously exhausting. And it's been my reality every damn day of my life.

I have no control over this. Nothing has worked for it. It hasn't gotten better, in fact it's gotten worse. I have ADHD/OCD as well, so its probably part of that larger brain dysfunction.

It feels like there is no protective coating over my nerves. Like they are completely exposed and raw.

Honestly the thing that has actually helped is just plain avoidance. I don't leave the house very often. I stick to quieter spots. And I always, always, always have headphones on me. Learned that too many times the hard way. Also GABA promoting medications take the edge off a bit for me. But they come with their own set of problems (like anything really). I'm on Baclofen, it's the only thing that can get me a somewhat restful sleep, and dulls the intensity of the stimuli during the day. I'd be dead already without it for sure. But it's no where near enough.

I'm sorry you've being going through this. And that I don't have any better advice/solutions to offer. It's sheer hell having your nervous system prodded and provoked so frequently and intensely.

 

[BipolarExpress]

I have extreme sensory sensitivities, though mine are mostly visual and verbal. I react strongly to fonts, spellings of words, pronunciation, punctuation, colours, and similar things. It's like misophonia, but with words and symbols instead of sounds, and it's difficult to explain because I don't know anyone else who reacts in quite the same way. If I read something with words that look the wrong way—whether because they're in the wrong font or they're spelled in a way I find ugly—then I have to put it down and deal with my sensory reactions. It's TORTURE. (Hilariously, I'm a good editor because those things jump out at me so readily, but it also comes at the cost of my peace of mind.)

 

[Dyingsoon]

That sounds like misphonia. There is also Hyperacusis which is pure hell on earth when in severe forms and I am speaking from experience. You can check this disorder as well. If there is an actual damage to your ears I would be careful around loud noises and plug up when necessary.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I had an increased startle response for a while. I have no idea what caused it. It lasted well over a year. It was terrible. Any little sound, no matter how faint, as long as I could hear it, brought me to shakes that reverberated throughout my body. It sucked. It finally diminished and then went away. I really feel for the OPs plight. I'm so sorry you're experiencing this.

 

[toasterbath]

Yeah I feel frozen in fight or flight. Unless I'm in a benzo haze, everything makes me jump or react extremely. I don't even want to get noise cancelling headphones if I plan to die soon and and most earplugs are uncomfortable. It really sucks.

 

[StolenLife]

Thank you all for your answers. I think it's misophonia and misokinesia. I thought I had autism for the longest time but apparently I don't though there were some complications at my birth that might have caused this. However my CT seems fine. Thanks for your advice! My issues might also be trauma based but idk. I feel for all of you with similar issues, it's truly hell.

 

[Teddybear]

My mom used to be hypersensitive to any intense music or noise, specially when it came out of the TV. It drove me crazy as a kid - a boy who loved to get "noisy". I always had to walk on egg shells around her.

And now as an old geezer I find that I can't stand the noise my neighbor's drill makes when he puts yet another hole in his wall (how many pictures can you hang on a wall anyway?)

The movies, the newscast and even Docu TV: They are all so overorchestrated now that just watching most of them stresses me out. The doorbell ringing 3 times in a row, because Amazon employs more delivery services than I got credit cards, makes me outright aggressive.

I am turning into my mom, more so with each passing year. :(

 

[achromatic]

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