Help Suicide as a Statement - How Can I Make Sure The Message Is Heard

[Forever Sleep]

All I can think of is to get in touch with trans rights groups. Maybe now- to introduce yourself and to make them aware of your situation and your fears (without hinting at suicide.) Then- to, in some way alert them if you do end up deciding to do it (afterwards).

I can understand you want to be seen as a martyr to the cause but- you need people willing to believe enough to be fighting for it to use that. And I imagine those most likely to use your example are people already fighting.

It's so awful though. To be in a position where you feel strong armed into doing it. I'm so sorry.

 

[Front Back]

What do you suggest, then?

I don't really know when it comes like this, But I have a grudge against the official and if I do CTB I plan to take them down with me.

 

[peacebenow]

I'm a early middle aged transgender female, living in the worst possible state to be Trans in, and I am facing potential jailtime bc a meth head accused me of pulling my gun on him in a parking lot, when I didn't.

As a very feminine bodied trans woman who is a survivor of gang rape and human trafficking, I cannot endure that. I have cptsd from what happened, and am terrified by men. Being surrounded by and potentially locked into cells with them would be a fate worse than death for me. The few times that I have been in jail for public drunks, I have been at the very bottom of the pecking order.. had my toilet paper, my toothbrush, and my food stolen from me.

I've been threatened with violence and rape multiple times. I simply cannot live with the possibility of it, let alone the reality. If they find me guilty, and they will, because this state is prejudiced against people like me, they will put me back in there with men who will beat and rape me. I just can't endure that again. I cant.

Because of the fucked up, socially backwards nature of the state that I live in, I've been left no other choice but to end my life so that I don't have to run the risk of living underneath the threat of being beaten and raped again everyday. I'm rapidly approaching the point that I no longer have anything left to say, and no longer have the energy to reach out.

I want to reiterate that this is not some sort of mental health crisis.. this is a rational response to what I'm facing, given my past. I've thought it out, over and again... I don't want to end my life... it's not like I take any joy in it. Iif anything I'm very remorseful at the concept, because my thoughts are with those that I will leave behind...

I want to stress that I'm a perfectly mentally and emotionally stable woman. Under any other circumstances I would -never- entertain ending my life, let alone put together a kit with which to do so... it's just that I am facing abject, unsurvivable horrors.



As I've tried to explain to those I've confided in, there are some fates worse than death... some circumstances in which death is not only preferable, but a welcome friend.... and as much as my spirit loathes it, I am helplessly and hopelessly imperiled to one. I've been left no other choice.


So, I guess my question is how can I go about explaining why it is I'm left no other choice but to do this when I don't want to, and make sure the whole world knows, so maybe something will be done to prevent other people like me having to kill themselves in the future?

How can I make a statement that will get out to the public, and generate the outrage that should be generated by this? How can I use this inescapable, and tragic situation to create some kind of change?

I don't have a choice but to end my life... but if I have to end my life.. how can I make sure that some good comes of this final ac

the US has turned into such a horrifying country. I am so sorry the state you are living in is this vile way, I think you wanting to make a statement is brave and honoring your truth. all you can do is try and leave knowing that you did that. reaching out to journalists to get their attention, a politically active trans celebrity.

 

[PainWorseThanDeath]

Going back over all my old posts to say fuck all this.

I don't want to die, let alone with a plastic bag over my head.

The exit bag megathread cant be trusted anyway.

No way to accurately know what lpm we would get out of the regulator.

No way to know if the regulator would freeze up in process.

Contradicting info in the comments that could lead to failure, and suffering.

Its not worth it. Even if I wanted to die still, theres NO WAY im risking becoming a vegetable, or passing out and then dying suffocating ON the plastic bag because I didnt get the gas flow right.

Fuuuuuuuck that!

Nah, y'all... I'm gonna kick this bullshit court cases ass.

And if I do go to jail for some shit I didnt do, I am NOT gonna get punked. If a mfer in there wants to try and beat up on or rape me... they're gonna have to fight me to the death.

The days of beating up on, and making a victim of this faggot right here over with. I'm not going to be a victim of shit anymore. I'm fighting back, you hear me? Laying down and dying is what the world wants out of trans women. I'm not going along with the fucking plan.

I almost let this bullshit take my life from me. Almost let it take me from everybody that loves me. Nobody's putting hands on me again. I looked my own death in the eye. I ain't scared of shit, now. I'm nobody's victim, including myself.

 

[Ima-username]

Thats the spirit! Fight like hell in court! No one should have to go through this mental torture and the threats of a male jail when they have never lived their life as a guy before. I wish you all the best with your fight. <3

 

[SASU-KE]

Thats the spirit! Fight like hell in court! No one should have to go through this mental torture and the threats of a male jail when they have never lived their life as a guy before. I wish you all the best with your fight. <3

I have read about your own issues with the legal system and I hope that you can fight it as well.I know that the stress of prosecution and going through the justice system is pretty difficult. But they might not really get much out of it if they decide to prosecute you. You might come out of this unscathed

 

[PainWorseThanDeath]

I fully believe that I will. The fact of the matter is, the truth is on my side. I'll be damned if I'm going to cower, shy away, and let this world do to me what it's always done to me.

Me almost ruining the lives of my parents, my fiance, and my kids was the last straw.

I'm standing up and fighting, with a spirit of righteous indignation. I'm nobody's victim anymore. To hell with that nonsense.

 

[Ima-username]

I have read about your own issues with the legal system and I hope that you can fight it as well.I know that the stress of prosecution and going through the justice system is pretty difficult. But they might not really get much out of it if they decide to prosecute you. You might come out of this unscathed

unlike OP here the truth isnt on my side an im guilty as charged. Sure i can cry manipulation trauama and whatever context but none of it legally matters at the end of the day. What the cops say did happen and legally they see it as serious when i see it as other peoples actions not mine. I simply ran to red flags and got burnt trying to cope.
Unfortunately theres mandatory minimums for my charge so they'll end up messing my life up with a perminate record and years of issues. its either they drop the case before charging or i CTB.

Everything you think is a legal defense just isnt in my county its just things that counter act agravated factors and try to lower a sentence.

 

[PainWorseThanDeath]

unlike OP here the truth isnt on my side an im guilty as charged. Sure i can cry manipulation trauama and whatever context but none of it legally matters at the end of the day. What the cops say did happen and legally they see it as serious when i see it as other peoples actions not mine. I simply ran to red flags and got burnt trying to cope.
Unfortunately theres mandatory minimums for my charge so they'll end up messing my life up with a perminate record and years of issues. its either they drop the case before charging or i CTB.

Everything you think is a legal defense just isnt in my county its just things that counter act agravated factors and try to lower a sentence.

What charges are you facing?

 

[Ima-username]

What charges are you facing?

No comment :p i got like 5 so far but who knows if that will increase or decrease. Its all blown way out of proportion the amount of time and money wasted on this case is insane and such an over reach. maybe thats a hot take but nothing i did actually ended up in anyone getting hurt so this level of response is crazy to me. Everything is always serious to them they just like to get their stats up

 

[broken serenity]

Everything is always serious to them they just like to get their stats up

Getting that high score

I hope they drop ur case

 

[YISDISBAD]

I'm a early middle aged transgender female, living in the worst possible state to be Trans in, and I am facing potential jailtime bc a meth head accused me of pulling my gun on him in a parking lot, when I didn't.

As a very feminine bodied trans woman who is a survivor of gang rape and human trafficking, I cannot endure that. I have cptsd from what happened, and am terrified by men. Being surrounded by and potentially locked into cells with them would be a fate worse than death for me. The few times that I have been in jail for public drunks, I have been at the very bottom of the pecking order.. had my toilet paper, my toothbrush, and my food stolen from me.

I've been threatened with violence and rape multiple times. I simply cannot live with the possibility of it, let alone the reality. If they find me guilty, and they will, because this state is prejudiced against people like me, they will put me back in there with men who will beat and rape me. I just can't endure that again. I cant.

Because of the fucked up, socially backwards nature of the state that I live in, I've been left no other choice but to end my life so that I don't have to run the risk of living underneath the threat of being beaten and raped again everyday. I'm rapidly approaching the point that I no longer have anything left to say, and no longer have the energy to reach out.

I want to reiterate that this is not some sort of mental health crisis.. this is a rational response to what I'm facing, given my past. I've thought it out, over and again... I don't want to end my life... it's not like I take any joy in it. Iif anything I'm very remorseful at the concept, because my thoughts are with those that I will leave behind...

I want to stress that I'm a perfectly mentally and emotionally stable woman. Under any other circumstances I would -never- entertain ending my life, let alone put together a kit with which to do so... it's just that I am facing abject, unsurvivable horrors.



As I've tried to explain to those I've confided in, there are some fates worse than death... some circumstances in which death is not only preferable, but a welcome friend.... and as much as my spirit loathes it, I am helplessly and hopelessly imperiled to one. I've been left no other choice.


So, I guess my question is how can I go about explaining why it is I'm left no other choice but to do this when I don't want to, and make sure the whole world knows, so maybe something will be done to prevent other people like me having to kill themselves in the future?

How can I make a statement that will get out to the public, and generate the outrage that should be generated by this? How can I use this inescapable, and tragic situation to create some kind of change?

I don't have a choice but to end my life... but if I have to end my life.. how can I make sure that some good comes of this final act?

It doesn't give much to your situation. And I know this is so useless to you.
But I really wish I could give you a hug right now.

 

[Ima-username]

Getting that high score

I hope they drop ur case

Thank you! Lets keep the messages positive for OP!
Sorry OP i didnt mean to hijack this post. Just that we seem to be facing pretty much exactly the same issue just other than the fact i cant fight mine

 

[PainWorseThanDeath]

No comment :p i got like 5 so far but who knows if that will increase or decrease. Its all blown way out of proportion the amount of time and money wasted on this case is insane and such an over reach. maybe thats a hot take but nothing i did actually ended up in anyone getting hurt so this level of response is crazy to me. Everything is always serious to them they just like to get their stats up

I wasn't meaning to pry, just lend my expierience with the criminal justice system to you, if I had anything to contribute. I'm fairly familiar with how things work, in and out of court. You feel like talking about it, just let me know.

 

[Ima-username]

I wasn't meaning to pry, just lend my expierience with the criminal justice system to you, if I had anything to contribute. I'm fairly familiar with how things work, in and out of court. You feel like talking about it, just let me know.

Maybe in private im just not sure what i can say and its just awful what they are making it out to be. Since the charge is a single word without any context. You seem to be from the US and im UK based so idk.

Anyone im open to DM

 

[PainWorseThanDeath]

Maybe in private im just not sure what i can say and its just awful what they are making it out to be. Since the charge is a single word without any context. You seem to be from the US and im UK based so idk.

Anyone im open to DM

Hit me up, man. At the very least we can commiserate. Have you ever been locked up before? Actually.. let's talk about that in private.