Discussion Suicidal scale

[030366]

I'd say I'm around 3-4 most of the time. The worst I've been it's 6 a couple of months ago. I don't ever think I'll have the guts to ctb unless the worst case scenario happens someday. But I'd say it's definitely on the back of my mind all the time, if things don't go my way, my brain has it as an escape. So I definitely relate to that immediately.

 

[Iamamistake]

Just a few months ago, I was around 3-4, now definitely feel 8-9, change is so unexpected but I don't remember being this sure about it in a long while.

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

9 or 10 minus the wanting help part. I plan to make this work. Got one note done... probably gonna edit it Monday when I can use my computer and not just my phone. Gotta write 3-4 more.

this time last year I was a 4.... but cheating douche made me realize life's not worth it. So it's kinda weird to think in a week I'll be prepping for my exit. I'll probably be taking my dog out to potty and kissing her and telling her how she was the best dog I could have ever wanted.

Are you going to give your dog to someone?

I think I'm about 9 on a average day. I keep thinking about when I can get away from my family to attempt partial for the week. I would put myself at a 10, but I can't die, unfortunately.

How many times have you tried partial?

 

[Marktheghost]

10, or possibly 9.

 

[Doormat]

I live at around 5/6. When I get caught out it flips to 8.

 

[SpottedPanda]

I'm at 9, though I'm not settling accounts, nor saying goodbye to anyone, and my note is pre written.

The other difference being that I'm not going to tell anyone in person. The last thing I want is a hospital stay, and it seems nonsensical from my perspective to make a firm decision, after careful thought, and then be open to having my mind changed.

 

[Poptart]

I was at a 1 for a while when manic. Then that dropped HARD to a 10.

Now Im at a solid 2/3.

 

[lostangel]

I am at 7 most of the time but lately I've been a 8.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I live pretty much at 6.

Right now I'm hanging in there at about 7.5.

 

[ghostgirl1995]

I bounce from 9 and 10 daily. I've been in the ambulance before too :(

 

[Simba]

Hello!
So I discovered this scale in the internet and I found it very useful.
Where would you consider yourself to be?
Ignore the medical help or it's not safe to be alone stuff as this is a CTB forum but thought it may help people talk about where they feel on the scale.

I would say my baseline is 8 even though I have written my notes. I flicker between a 8 and a 9 and then I go into a numbness and then it's 10.

I hope the image is clear!
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I'm between 5 to 8 :( it always comes and goes.. i could feel good about something but the moment things go for the worst ,that's it, I'll be down :/
I've been on number 10 before too ,but i wasn't settling anything with anyone just took lots of pills cause i was getting really upset an stuff :(

 

[Whisperer]

Between 4 and 8, depending on my mood. I just need the courage to go from an 8 to a 10.

 

[Élégie]

5-6 on good days, 7-8 on bad days...

 

[rhiino]

9 all the time.

 

[Saddaisy]

Are you going to give your dog to someone?

that dog is my partners baby. He would let himself die before anything happened to her, and she adores him. I would love to take her from him, but I know he'll take good care of her and she would be devastated without both of her humans. Just gotta get him a monthly reminder for her heart worm meds.

 

[UmbosGirl]

I feel like the way this is written doesn't quite make sense to me. This scale is more written going up from a 1, where I generally feel more going down from a 10. Food for thought.

 

[faust]

11. I have already drunk my SN, however I forgot I have some beer in the fridge.
Well, for me most of the time it is 6 to 9. Concerning 10, I am a bit cold, have to be patient and to feel no urge so when it comes, it comes.

 

[Cantdothisanymore]

10, but I don't want medical attention. The one person that could save me doesn't care enough to even try.

 

[Baguette]

I'd say a 9 for myself.

 

[Rue89]

10. I don't get much time alone at home and I'm having a little trouble finding another place without risk of being found too soon. As soon as I figure that out I'll be gone.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Seems like 8 best describes me. It's a little depressing actually, I thought I'd be lower down on the scale since I'm not always crying and panicking or anything, but I guess suicide has become something I obsess over constantly.

 

[RepressedMind]

9-10 trying partial until I succeed

 

[andresantosfx]

Just a few months ago, I was around 3-4, now definitely feel 8-9, change is so unexpected but I don't remember being this sure about it in a long while.

Same here.

 

[Soul]

4 and 5 resonate with me a lot - "death affinity" sounds like my lifelong default state. But it's not always glum or stale like that; can I have death affinity even when I float up to 2 or 3? Because I do have exhilarating evenings or afternoons - not whole days, but worth appreciating. 1 is a Stones show.