Suicidal people just want the pain to stop

[FireFox]

Suicidal people never wanted their loved ones to suffer and be left behind. All we want is the pain, the mental torment to stop.

Right now I feel like I am drowning and struggling to stay above surface level. I feel like huge tidal wave is coming and I have no where to run too. I feel so alone with the entire world against me.

There is nothing that can give me relief for this pain except death.

 

[fayth2567]

I agree. I don't want my family to be left behind, but i don't want to be alive either.

 

[Kush-Chronic]

I agree with you and feel exactly the same.
You just want the pain to finally stop that you have been carrying and enduring for so long.
The curtain has fallen. Everything dark. No more ray of hope and no path to point you in the right direction.

 

[katagiri83]

Right now I feel like I am drowning and struggling to stay above surface level. I feel like huge tidal wave is coming and I have no where to run too. I feel so alone with the entire world against me.

You are not alone @FireFox I've read your earlier post about the situation at your work, and yes, it is a very difficult & unfair situation… immensely overwhelming & hurtful.

In cases like this, you should've been told by management what was the purpose of the meeting prior, so that you could have a 3rd party support person if you chose to. If there's any Employee Assistance Program (EAP) within the organisation (which is quite standard for large org / corp), it'd be in your interest to notify them about the stress / trauma resulted from the meeting with your management, as a start anyway.

Wish you can have some momentary relief from the intense emotional pain right now.

You can DM, inbox is always opened

 

[FuneralCry]

I do believe that at least in my case only death could ever offer the relief that I wish for. As long as we exist there certainly is no real relief from suffering, as to suffer is simply the reality of existing in this cruel world. It disgusts me how so many are against suicide in a world like this, as I see no benefit and value to having to endlessly struggle in an existence not worth enduring.