Sudden urge to cut without thinking otherwise

[ezraeil]

i have been clean of self harm for almost 2 years now and just an hour ago while studying for my exams, (im not stressed or anything) i had the VERY VERY sudden urge to just get up and cut myself. Not a single thought in my head was telling me to stop or anything. It was like; Get up, go to the kitchen, grab a knife and cut your left arm. I am taking cipralex (Essitalopram, an antidepressant). I just wanted to share this "experience" since i couldnt fix any solutions or as of to why this just happened all of a sudden. Anyone got any idea why this might happen and how to prevent it?

 

[hikikomorizombie]

the only tip i can think of is the typical rubberband one. wear a rubberband around ur wrist & if u start getting those thoughts/urges snap it against ur skin & put all ur focus on that feeling till it goes away or subsides. def doesn't compare to cutting, but it helped me a bit after my 1st hospitalization.