Venting stupid

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there are a lot of meaningless things that i want to talk about. some things that just bum me out, like a group that i've followed for over half a decade just disbanded (OnlyOneOf, you will always be famous). some more positive things like new releases from my favorite bands, new updates in games that i enjoy, comic updates. the people i engage in small talk with just don't care about this stuff, and if they do, they just don't enjoy it if i'm the one speaking. having someone who engages in these conversations with you because they actually enjoy speaking with you is such a special thing.
having no one to have deep conversations about depression and suicide is one thing. even when i had close friends that i could vent to, i would obviously avoid talking about a lot of deeper/more personal things for obvious reasons; so not being able to talk about ANY of those things isn't that huge of a difference. it still hurts a lot, having horrible thoughts but no one to discuss them with; but i think that's a common thing.
wanting to talk about the more lighthearted things, but having no one to do it with is an entirely different kind of loneliness. i have to spend my free time seeing things and silently reacting.
i'm so over people saying that you have to learn to be alone/enjoy the time you spend alone. i agree, it's valuable to practice existing on your own and feeling content by yourself, but that's not my issue. i don't have a choice, i'm just alone and i have been for most of my life. there's a difference between having valuable alone time and being isolated because everyone has left you.

idk if i made much sense but whatever. soz again for lowk spamming the forum bro it's been rough

 

[IsTodayTheDay]

That's the one time I could suggest discussing it online. There will always be crowds of people hyped for the same events you're hyped for. I know it's not the same as in-person conversations, which is why I don' t personally use social media for it, but an outlet is better than nothing.
What things are you anticipating right now? The new ACNH update looks to be really cool, especially with it enabling bulk crafting.

 

[starboy2k]

libido will forever be a bop

 

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That's the one time I could suggest discussing it online. There will always be crowds of people hyped for the same events you're hyped for. I know it's not the same as in-person conversations, which is why I don' t personally use social media for it, but an outlet is better than nothing.
What things are you anticipating right now? The new ACNH update looks to be really cool, especially with it enabling bulk crafting.

just about every single one of my friendships has been online. i find people i relate to on different apps and forums, but they never seem to stick. even it we click over one thing, there's usually nothing else there.
and i had no idea ACNH was still being updated i played it a lot when it first came out, but i got too busy for it. i'm hyped for new tekken updates and characters, the new battlefield, the new resident evil, some franchises coming to fortnite, etc.
there's a lot happening rn

libido will forever be a bop

HELL YEAH dawg i've been following ooo before they even debuted, i literally remember where i was when libido dropped and they immediately started blowing up
what a time to be alive

 

[IsTodayTheDay]

just about every single one of my friendships has been online. i find people i relate to on different apps and forums, but they never seem to stick. even it we click over one thing, there's usually nothing else there.

Fair. I struggle with feeling out others' interests too. Though I'm sure there are some people that regularly play a game genre you're also invested in..

and i had no idea ACNH was still being updated

Yup, I thought ACNH was done too, then they throw a free update and NS2 edition.

some franchises coming to fortnite

What else is joining the cast? The DRG colab was really cool.