Venting Stuck in my Head and Body

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I think I just had a panic attack. I felt numbness in my limbs and shortness of breath, when I stood up, it felt very weird, i felt lightheaded.
I was just crying like the usual and the tears kept coming out, one moment I was crying and the next, I didn't feel like crying anymore. It just build up and I cried harder than I ever have. I don't think that I have had a panic attack before.
I want to get better and stop feeling so miserable, but I also want to end it all. I don't want to put in all of that work and effort again. It will never get better. I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel so stuck in this body, I want to get out.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.