OurDyingSystem
Screaming into the abyss of our mind
- Jul 10, 2023
- 5
We were on here last year around the same time, but our mom started keeping a closer eye on us, so we had to stop using the site.
Anyway, point of our post; Fuck dude, life is stressful as hell. Really wish we would've actually gone through with it last year. Let's see, we just got fired from our job for fucking attitude and no other reason. We didn't get any write ups, and we kept the store clean and tried to help customers the best we could. And no jobs have replied to our applications.
Our father, if you could even fucking call him that, is deciding to gaslight us in hopes that we'll speak with him again. (We haven't since august) Told us he'd give us our space but now he won't, and he's been preaching the fuckin bible to us.
And our weight is getting out of hand. One minute we're losing weight, the next we're gaining.
It's so exhausting. We feel horrible, and can't even fucking drive. For hellssake, we live with our mother. We're nineteen and half of our graduating class is already in college, in an apartment, or at the very least helping at their house. We have next to no friends. We're such a loser that the only person who actively hangs out with us is our older sister. That's it.
Sure, we still have our significant other in England, but we're in the US. We can't even hug him. We don't know if we'll ever be able to.
We're just a fat fuck who has no life, and no talents. And funny enough, we have nothing to kill ourself with. So if anyone has any methods that require little needed items/doesn't require heights, please let us know. I don't know how much longer we can live like this.
Fucking hell.
-Andrea
Anyway, point of our post; Fuck dude, life is stressful as hell. Really wish we would've actually gone through with it last year. Let's see, we just got fired from our job for fucking attitude and no other reason. We didn't get any write ups, and we kept the store clean and tried to help customers the best we could. And no jobs have replied to our applications.
Our father, if you could even fucking call him that, is deciding to gaslight us in hopes that we'll speak with him again. (We haven't since august) Told us he'd give us our space but now he won't, and he's been preaching the fuckin bible to us.
And our weight is getting out of hand. One minute we're losing weight, the next we're gaining.
It's so exhausting. We feel horrible, and can't even fucking drive. For hellssake, we live with our mother. We're nineteen and half of our graduating class is already in college, in an apartment, or at the very least helping at their house. We have next to no friends. We're such a loser that the only person who actively hangs out with us is our older sister. That's it.
Sure, we still have our significant other in England, but we're in the US. We can't even hug him. We don't know if we'll ever be able to.
We're just a fat fuck who has no life, and no talents. And funny enough, we have nothing to kill ourself with. So if anyone has any methods that require little needed items/doesn't require heights, please let us know. I don't know how much longer we can live like this.
Fucking hell.
-Andrea
