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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
602
Wanting to ctb because you're poor. VALID
Wanting to ctb because your mental sucks. VALID
Wanting to ctb because of consistent relationship issues. VALID
Wanting to ctb because you just hate humanity and the fuckery that transpires from us. VALID
Wanting to ctb because you just don't feel like going to work ever again. VALID
So on and so forth……..

Any reason to CTB is a valid reason no matter what anybody say. After all it's YOUR CHOICE and seeking validation to end YOUR LIFE is kinda redundant.
If no one needed your permission for you to enter this shitty reality, if you damn sure don't need permission to keep living, then who the fuck do you need permission from to permanently escape it?
 
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Lextyle

Lextyle

What is this - Life?
Apr 6, 2026
245
I don't need any permission. I can just do that and what will they do? cry about that? I don't care
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,556
The more relevant question I think is whether we can adequately improve what is troubling us. I imagine by the time a person is feeling suicidal about it though, they've likely already tried or at the least, considered ways of solving their problem(s). And, I would say- probably rejected those ideas too- otherwise- they'd be focussed on implementing them instead- presumably.
 
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difficvltmachineryy

Szomorú vasárnap, száz fehér virággal 𔓘
May 9, 2026
49
Yes. All of this is just too much to take. All the wars and sickness, the evil people in this world, then my personal issues, my family, my academic failures...life shouldnt be like this. I hope i can find peace in death
 
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Lextyle

Lextyle

What is this - Life?
Apr 6, 2026
245
Yes. All of this is just too much to take. All the wars and sickness, the evil people in this world, then my personal issues, my family, my academic failures...life shouldnt be like this. I hope i can find peace in death
There will be most likely just non-existence which is not peace. I don't know if it's sad that we will never actually experience peace, but maybe non-existence is even better than peace I don't know
 
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difficvltmachineryy

difficvltmachineryy

Szomorú vasárnap, száz fehér virággal 𔓘
May 9, 2026
49
There will be most likely just non-existence which is not peace. I don't know if it's sad that we will never actually experience peace, but maybe non-existence is even better than peace I don't know
It's so sad we can't know what actually happens after death, i mean i do know its non-existence, that's what happens, but there are so many superstitions and religious beliefs of an afterlife, it is all quackery to mess with your head. Even non-existence is better than this monotonous boredom, and i would die anyway, but dying sooner means dealing with less horrors and bullshit in my life
 
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nihacc

nihacc

Member
May 2, 2026
15
Humans were never meant to live in the world we find ourselves in now. We are nothing but animals. We are a social and tribal species of hunters. I wish I was born and raised as I was meant to be in nature. I wouldn't be depressed, suicidal, cursed with intelligence, or have to worry about being a slave going to work just to barely get by. It infuriates me that people think this is a "good" thing. They are so quick to label people who recognize this as schizophrenic, dangerous, domestic/eco terrorists, etc.
 
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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
622
I agree with this. But if people are questioning the validity of their reasoning for wanting to ctb, I feel like instead of just telling them they are valid. We should ask them if they are actually ready to do something as irreversible as dying. I see death as mercy from one's pain rather than a tragedy. But if someone has even a slight glimmer of hope that they could improve their situation, they should take it. Because at the end of the day the option to ctb will always be there, but the option to live won't always be there. Suicide should absolutely be seen as a personal decision someone can make for themselves rather than something that should be prevented under any circumstance. But I feel possibly helping people get better and rethink the ultimate undoable act should be prioritised over just immediately being in support of their death.
There will be most likely just non-existence which is not peace. I don't know if it's sad that we will never actually experience peace, but maybe non-existence is even better than peace I don't know
Peace is the absence of suffering. Even if we cant technically consciously experience nonexistence. That's exactly what makes it so peaceful. Death is the ultimate form of peace.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
602
Humans were never meant to live in the world we find ourselves in now. We are nothing but animals. We are a social and tribal species of hunters. I wish I was born and raised as I was meant to be in nature. I wouldn't be depressed, suicidal, cursed with intelligence, or have to worry about being a slave going to work just to barely get by. It infuriates me that people think this is a "good" thing. They are so quick to label people who recognize this as schizophrenic, dangerous, domestic/eco terrorists, etc.
The fact that we are the only fucking species that not only has to pay bills, but also the only one to have access to earth-shattering nukes, is more than enough reason to want to get the fuck out of here for good. 🙄
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
250
Yes, and nobody will care anyway (at least in my case). Especially where I come from. As a matter of fact they will be happy to know that I will CTB. Maybe they will be disappointed knowing I won't sacrifice myself in meat assaults instead
 
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Off_Switch

Off_Switch

Experienced
Aug 15, 2025
273
100% this. The simple fact that your brain is telling you it does not want to keep going should be reason enough. Especially if you have exhausted all avenues of finding a way to make it feel otherwise.
 
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tomame

tomame

forlorn 💔
Dec 28, 2025
202
this is true .. everyone keeps trying to validate why they want to ctb like its necessary

i want to ctb because im a weak piece of shit.

no further explanation needed. lol
 
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squiddedoutt

kaolinite
Feb 23, 2026
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SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
229
You've said it.

1. "You cannot please everyone; control the things you can control." ~Suncha Ferriera (Victus Group)/Mark 8:36, Matthew 13:12

2. The grass withers, the flowers fade, because the breath of the Lord blows upon it; surely the people are grass.
The grass withers, the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever. (Isaiah 40:7-8)

3. The world hates liabilities, and would rather they not exist, as much as the rules dictate that all life is inherently valuable. (Proverbs 25:17)

Therefore, as much as I desire to live, and that a world without me would be awfully dull and grey, this isn't up to me; if I die, I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)
 
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dearlydeparted44

Specialist
May 21, 2025
378
Such a REAL post!!! No one has to sign me out of life. My reasons for leaving this shit show are valid and rational. I PAY TO FUCKING EXIST!!! A fucking baboon looks at me like "Dude, seriously!!?" There is nothing beautiful about the human experience nor about humans. They suck. Their world sucks. Yes, Earth is pretty. That's not enough to keep me here. I can't justify living in such a pitiful world and a soul-crushing imposition. I'm done, and I don't care who likes it or not. They didn't walk in my shoes. I didn't feel this world through my soul. They never saw it through my eyes. I don't need to explain to anyone why I'm doing this. I'm just ready to fucking go!!!
 
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