Stoned and drunk and suicidal

[barelyhere]

one of my closest friends is dead

I'm suicidal

I can't handle this

I tried to get stoned and drunk to forget

But I'm just more confused and angry

 

[exploitedbacteria]

That's a lot, I'm sorry you're going through this.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Being angry over the loss of a friend is a perfectly legitimate feeling to have. You'll, most likely, have to go through the entire stages of grief until you, actually, get to the acceptance part.

https://www.verywellmind.com/five-stages-of-grief-4175361

 

[sadToast]

been in your position before. a couple years ago i lost my closest friend (unironically to suicide) its rough and no amount of pot or alcohol mended that wound when it was fresh. but its how we start processing grief. in no way was what happened to my friend sudden or something that was surprising to me yet i still was confused an angry. the process isn't linear but as long as you can understand it what the grief process consists of you move throughout it easier. finding acceptance was not easy but it is possible. sincerely sorry for your loss <3

 

[FuneralCry]

At least that person cannot suffer anymore, the reality is that we all have to cease existing someday, we are destined for nothing else other than that. But it must be hard to deal with what you have to endure, I wish you the best.

 

[Mirrory Me]

I am so sorry for your friend. You probably have a lot to think about, try to mourn his passing in a healthy way.

 

[Jezzibell]

I'm so sorry you are in such a low place. I think its fine to get high for now. But I think you need to process the grief when you are sober. Its hard and painful but you need to acknowledge the loss and grieve I really am so sorry you are going through this.