Still the same

[kirby_99]

I've never contributed to anything. I've never been special, I've never been particularly pretty or easy to converse with, interesting or popular. Never been the person you'd take a second glance at on the street. Never been the person you'd think about to invite out to a party or a hangout. It feels like no matter what I do, I don't fit in. I want to disappear. I can't stand being here anymore. I have no way of doing it, I am too scared to die yet too miserable to keep living on. My life has amounted to nothing. I don't think it ever will amount to much at all. I tried last year, it didn't work, I'm still here. I just want to be gone tonight. I can't carry this weight for much longer. Ahahhhahahh, everyone hates me yknow, nobody cares about me, nobody would be sad or effected, i'd be better off dead. Hahahaha i thought after you get a partner, they're supposed to love you. I'm no good at love either you see? I'm no good at anything. I'll never be good enough, i'll never be pretty or fun enough. My own partner hates me, i see how he looks at me, i see the hatred and disgust in his eyes. He settled for me. He doesn't love me. He doesn't care. He doesn't like me.

 

[JesiBel]

I'm sorry for what you're going through. Hugs to you. I understand, I feel that way too. As if I don't belong in this world. No matter how hard I try, I will never be accepted anywhere. No one cares about my existence, only when they need something.

I'm not one to interfere in your relationship, but if your partner is the one who causes you the most suffering and discomfort... you should leave him. Maybe it's better to be alone than to be next to someone who makes you feel worse.

 

[swell]

I feel the exact same way

 

[FishRain3469]

I feel like I could have written that myself, except I don't even have a partner. Sad fckn state of affairs.

Thank you for sharing this, thoughts and prayers Always. ♥

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Same. My wife absolutely hates me in every possible way. This is hell.