Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
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I am reading post after post that people need to stay on this planet for various reasons (oh @6ixxy ;) ) I am also reading how depressing this time of the year is.
This is a support post. Vent, yell, scream and let it all out.
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. Today is a very bad day. First snow and the pain of living on this planet is unbearable for me today. I don't want to be here. That being said, I will not CTB. This too will pass. One second at a time.
I also know I am prone to impulsive CTB. My choice is ODing on meds. I have respiratory failure and it will be very simple for me not to take an asthma pump dose or meds. Last night I didn't take my meds. I immediately started having spasms. It would have been very easy to push me over the edge. But I didn't.
Today I will not CTB. This pain will lessen. Just now it is absolutely horrible. It is not my time yet.
This is a support post. Vent, yell, scream and let it all out.
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. Today is a very bad day. First snow and the pain of living on this planet is unbearable for me today. I don't want to be here. That being said, I will not CTB. This too will pass. One second at a time.
I also know I am prone to impulsive CTB. My choice is ODing on meds. I have respiratory failure and it will be very simple for me not to take an asthma pump dose or meds. Last night I didn't take my meds. I immediately started having spasms. It would have been very easy to push me over the edge. But I didn't.
Today I will not CTB. This pain will lessen. Just now it is absolutely horrible. It is not my time yet.