Scriptchick55
One foot in this world one foot out!
- Aug 24, 2022
- 10
Hello everyone, this is my first time posting on here I'm very shy even online so please bear with me as this is very out of my comfort zone. I've wanted to ctb since I was 15 when my father was stupidly allowed to come back into my life after being gone 13 years. But I stuck around for my family specifically my mother and of course SI. I don't find any good reason to stick around for them anymore. I'm not punishing them but none of them show up for me the way I show up for them. Same with my friends. Everyone just uses me to vent, complain, and the occasional punching bag because why not I'm easy I never stand up for myself All my siblings have chose their abusive significant others over me and unfortunately themselves and their children. It's hard to watch. My mother hates when I talk about ctb but she's essentially doing the same thing. Refuses to see a doctor, takes my meds refuses to go out and get her own. She can be sitting around with cancer for all we know but it's a problem when I want to get out of here! I don't know when I'll make my exit tbh I always said 45 if things don't get better I'm 27 now, at this rate I'll just move it up to 30. It's feels a little freeing to not care that much about how my friends and family feels I hope that does not make me a shitty person.