Venting Starting the planning again

[Idontmatter]

I unfortunately had to postpone ctbing again due to a death in the family. I didn't want my husband to have to mourn 2 people in the same week. I've started planning again, hoping to go in a few weeks. My issues have cost my family to much money. The amount of self hatred I have is overwhelming. I don't deserve to live and the best thing I can do is leave. I hate myself so much. I'm ready to join others that I've talked to on here that are now dead. I no longer will be the burden on everyone. I'm done crying and delaying. I'm worthless and am a weak person because I can't handle this life.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really is so cruel and I know that it's hard to carry on when you suffer so much. Life does just seem to be endless problems and misery. I hope that you find freedom from your situation.