hey, sorry you did. I know it feels good won't deny that myself. I'd also be the first to say its not the best cope out there, and yeah its a lot Lot worse if you become addicted to it. gotta say that if you've just started, or you have experimented with it today, which is valid.
i hope you know how to take propper care of the wounds, there are resources for that here if u need, and for the tool too, important.
consider whether you want to keep doing this, or try some other stuff, its your choice for now. I just hope u feel good enough soon so that you dont have as much need to turn to it regardless, hugs <3