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Foster13

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Oct 24, 2019
55
Safe travels friend. Leave all of the worries behind.
 
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Darkhaven

Darkhaven

All i have left is memories
May 19, 2019
979
Friend, i hope everything turns out fine for you, as long as that is your will and choice.
This world really is the most cruel thing ever.
Hopefully all your struggles will dissapear and you may be at peace.
We are here for you.
I will be going with SN too when i make up my mind.
 
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Sadwind

Sadwind

want to go
Sep 21, 2019
76
I don't know you, but I hope your time is pleasant and peaceful. You deserve warmth and peace.
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Holyfuckingshit peace❤️
 
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TowerUpright

TowerUpright

Disillusioned
May 26, 2019
602
Peaceful exit, brother.
 
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less than

less than

not important
Jul 25, 2019
194
How do you feeling now? If there is any doubt you can break off your plan at any time. At least you are virtualy not alone.
 
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WelcomingPain

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Oct 21, 2019
90
My thoughts go out to you, and I wish you a painless journey
 
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MaybeMaybeKnot

MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
339
Wishing you a peaceful and quiet passing. Thank you for your time with us.
 
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Kitodai

Member
Sep 14, 2019
10
15 more hours to go until I take the SN. Thank you all for being here with me on my final day. It's comforting not to be alone in this endeavor.
 
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Darkhaven

Darkhaven

All i have left is memories
May 19, 2019
979
15 more hours to go until I take the SN. Thank you all for being here with me on my final day. It's comforting not to be alone in this endeavor.
We'll be here for you.
You won't walk alone.
 
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JSauter

Experienced
Oct 14, 2019
207
Just for my own clarification: you took 10mg of meto every 8 hours and have 2 doses left?
 
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trynacbt

trynacbt

Arcanist
Sep 28, 2019
476
I hope all goes well. We are with you.
 
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Polka

Student
Oct 6, 2019
135
You are not alone. You can talk it over if you wish. Main problem seems to be early detection and anti-emetics.
 
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Kitodai

Member
Sep 14, 2019
10
2 1/2 more hours to go. Just finished writing my note.
 
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Neverod

Neverod

>:^3
Aug 8, 2019
150
How's everything going at the moment? I hope you didn't experienced any side effects from the meto.
I'm feeling anxious just reading at your post, thinking i'll do the same in a few days...
 
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Kitodai

Member
Sep 14, 2019
10
How's everything going at the moment? I hope you didn't experienced any side effects from the meto.
I'm feeling anxious just reading at your post, thinking i'll do the same in a few days...
Feeling a little scared, and thankfully the meto worked like a charm for me without any consequences. I just hope it'll feel like going into a peaceful slumber.
Just took my stat dose of meto. Will be taking tagamet shortly.
 
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Kitodai

Member
Sep 14, 2019
10
...damn, even after getting this far; I realize that I can't go through with this after all. Looking at the SN glass terrifies me too much.
 
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cookiedough

Member
Oct 25, 2019
45
...damn, even after getting this far; I realize that I can't go through with this after all. Looking at the SN glass terrifies me too much.
Is the fear of dying outweighing the suffering you're going through in this life?
 
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Kitodai

Member
Sep 14, 2019
10
Is the fear of dying outweighing the suffering you're going through in this life?
Up until just moments ago, my answer was decidedly no, but once I prepared the concoction...an unshakable sense of fear came over me.
 
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cookiedough

Member
Oct 25, 2019
45
Up until just moments ago, my answer was decidedly no, but once I prepared the concoction...an unshakable sense of fear came over me.
I can definitely understand that extremely intense fear. One drink away from death. So are going to start recovering or anything? Or are you going to try again in a different way?
 
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Stan

Stan

Factoid Hunter
Aug 29, 2019
2,589
Up until just moments ago, my answer was decidedly no, but once I prepared the concoction...an unshakable sense of fear came over me.
If now is not your time then don't. Many people have experienced the same thing. There is nothing to worry about, just take your time and pour it away, come back and have a chat.
 
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Polka

Polka

Student
Oct 6, 2019
135
Make a list for and against as you put this attempt to one side.
 
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MaybeMaybeKnot

MaybeMaybeKnot

No ctrl-z when you ctb
Oct 25, 2019
339
You are brave for getting this far. There is always another opportunity for another try. Consider this a practice run.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
No worries. If it is not your time, it isn't your time. Get medical attention should you need it. No reason to be ashamed.
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
@Kitodai, I hope you're getting some good rest. Be sure to drink plenty of water, get some sun on your skin, eat your spinach and be gentle with yourself. x
 
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